I think the first 20 pounds was just weight that my body needed cuz of being so thin and sick. So...that 20 was a must. But to be honest...I just want to eat big portions because I can't get full....or at least feel full. With the band I always had that full feeling and knew when to stop...as it was a forced stop. (I hope that makes sense.) So when I eat now I want to keep eating because of the needing to feel full feeling I was used to for 6 years. I eat super healthy so I know it isn't cuz of chocolate or things like that. It really comes down to me wanting to get full. I pray that I never get sick again when I get my new band. I was devistated to have the band removed for fear that old eating habits would come back and to my dismay they did. My advice to everyone is to never purposely throw up...never eat too much to throw up....try to never throw up. It is the worst feeling to not be able to hold ANYTHING down. Band slippage is something to stay far away from. HOWEVER, some of this is my fault. For about a month before I got sick I noticed I wasn't able to eat like I normally did. Had I gone in to the doctor and had some of the Fluid removed this would have allowed to band to slip back into place as it had just a small slipage. But I didn't and the whole thing slipped. (
I hope this helps. Don't be fearful....just don't throw up.