Georgia

Sorry to be late, Coops! happy belated birthday. I'm glad it was a great day!!!

I had a hysterectomy at 38 and I am now 62 so if I get a chunky butt after surgery I will have to claim it!

Hi everyone, it has been 1 month since I posted my weight. When I first started my reset I was 187. Now 5 weeks later I'm at 172.8 This has been hard but so rewarding. I found my willpower. Yesterday at work my team had pizza party and brownies and Oreo balls. I went into the room and talked and everything. What did I eat.....absolutely nothing. I drank my Water. Everyone kept trying. To get me to eat and I was like no I'm dieting. In my mind I was thinking if I eat that then I won't lose tomorrow when I get on the scale and that's not worth it. This struggle is real but I truly believe we can achieve our goals and be successful....trying for 6 to 8 more pounds by my doctors appointment whic is March 27.

I am 16 months out. I never made goal I still need to lose 40 pounds . My lowest weight was 173 in August. I had gained weight and was at 187 at my dr. Visit last week. Needless to say my surgeon challenged me to lose 10 pounds in two months. Told him I thouj my sleeve was broken. Turns out I have been grazing. I kept saying few snack won't hurt me. They have killed me and Im so mad at myself. I'm going to Paris in June and want to look fab.
This week went back to basics and have lost 6 pounds since monday. I have gone back to basics as everyone on here suggested and it works. 1 Protein shake in morning , greek yogurt for lunch. Lean Protein for snack when get home from work. Additional lean protein around 7 pm. Also have gotten in all my Water something I never did before. Keeping my carbs at 20 grams and my protein at 90. I am so grateful. That I have this forum to see that I'm not alone on this journey

I get what all of you are saying. Trust me I'm 3 mos away from 6 years out. Have I gone up and down? Yes! Have I lost total control of comfort/junk food? Sure have! But i also know this - regaining 10-20 lbs is NOTHING compared to where I was at 250 lbs. I think we all just believed that this "magic" surgery was going to solve all our problems and we would sail through the rest of our lives skinny and fit. Unfortunately, I think we all understand now that it's just a TOOL. Unless we continue To be vigilant we WILL gain. I, honestly, don't do much exercise. I know I should and I try to walk a few times a week but that's it. The other thing is studies have shown that our bodies are metabolically changed after years of yo yo dieting and then weight loss surgery. A NORMAL weight person will gain some weight, cut back and lose. No problem. Not us. I know for me my BMR is about 1350 cal per day. That's low for common folk! I WILL GAIN above that. To lose I have to be about 800-1000 a day! And most times I try to cut that back on a couple days to 500-700. Do I like it? Nope. Really I don't but I had this surgery to be healthy and try to somehow protect myself as much as possible from stroke, diabetes etc. I guess what I'm saying- just keep trying and moving forward. We are survivors! Truly we are. I'm 62. Just thinking that I have done this for myself and managed to keep at it is empowering in itself!!!

Hi Ladies. It's been many many months since I have been here. I went back and read over the posts from the last couple weeks but I doubt I'll go back six months and read to catch up.
Life has been crazy and incredibly sad for me since I was here last. I know it was around the time that we found out my dad had pancreatic cancer that I was here.
He passed away on February 12th, and his funeral was on February 20th.
He passed away 5 months to the day we found out he had cancer and what an incredibly long, heartbreaking 5 months it had been.
Shortly after he was diagnosed he had surgery to remove 1/2 of his pancreas and all of his spleen. They thought they had removed all of the cancer but a few days later the pathology report had stated that there was cancer that had grown out and above the pancreas and it was also in some of his lymph nodes.
He did pretty well for a week or so after the surgery and went home but a couple days after he came home he ended up with complications; a leak where the pancreas was stitched after it was removed so pancreatic Fluid was leaking and was very painful. Back in the hospital he went. That's when the nightmare began.
He was so very sick and just didn't recover well. Day after day something would go wrong. At one point he had 6 drains and also a drain into his stomach for tube feeding. He just couldn't recover from these complications. He developed wounds in his incision and it was all just a awful.
We finally did get him home right before thanksgiving but he was in his bed most of the time, very weak with a nurse coming to the house daily.
He had to recover from this in order get strong enough to have chemo to begin to deal with the cancer that we knew was, at that point, in his lymph nodes.
He never did recover, we had multi visits to the hospital to see doctor and wound care. By this point all he could do was walk to the bathroom and to the car but other than that he was in a wheel chair, he was just too weak to do anything.
In January we found out the cancer has spread to his liver and that he likely had a few more months to live. His oncologist told him he could start a mild form of chemo. My mom and sisters and I didn't want him to do it Bc we knew he was so weak and sick already. He decided to do it and we knew we had to respect whatever decision he made.
He had chemo on a Monday in the beginning of February. He was very tired over the next few days and by Thursday my mom called me in a panic saying he was shaking so bad and had a high fever. I rushed over and we took him to the ER. I should have called 911, by the time we got to the ER he couldn't even stand on his own and they had to lift him out of the car.
The next day, Friday, we found out the cancer had spread everywhere in his body. He decided he would go home on hospice. While in the hospital for a couple days, hourly he was getting worse. The pain was worse. He could actually feel tumors popping up and feel the cancer growing in his body.
He went home in an ambulance on Monday. Hospice started and we were hoping to have a few more weeks with him.
Again, hourly the pain would be worse, we had to figure out pain meds and he was getting so many different ones, every hour, just to keep him comfortable.
By Thursday of that week he went into a coma. He came out of it for just a bit on Thursday night, he and my mom slept pretty well that night together. Friday morning he woke up again for a few minutes but was in much pain. We increased pain meds even more. He went into a coma again and never woke up after that. He died that Friday night surrounded by his family.
It's has been an incredibly emotional time for all of us. From the time he was diagnosed, it was bad news. Non stop hospital/doctor visits. Just one thing after another. I kid you not when I saw we never went more than a couple days and he would go back to the doctor to find out more bad news.
Now we are learning how to grieve. None of my sisters or my mom have ever lost someone so close to us so it's a learning process. We are all a close family.
It's hard seeing my mom so very sad, she doesn't know how to live after losing her best friend of 50 years. I don't know how to help her while I am trying to grieve the loss of a wonderful dad and gramps.
I have good days and bad days and I know I'll make it through.
I've only gained 5-7 pounds, depending on the day I step in the scale. I'm not too concerned about that. The last couple weeks I am finally getting back into my regular exercise routine. This is helping me emotionally. The weight will go back down now that I'm eating normal again. For 5 months every single day was in limbo so my regular exercise and clean eating took a back seat. My whole life, my husband and my kids all took a back seat.
Deep down, when I found out he had cancer, I didn't think he would make it long. When he developed complications after the surgery, I knew in my heart, it was going to be a downward spiral.
I am so thankful I was able to devote my time to be with my mom and dad and to help. I went to every single doctor appointment with him and I was at the hospital almost daily with him. The last week I was with him at his house day and night.
I was able to say everything I wanted to say to him. My children and husband were able to say anything they needed or wanted to say to him while he was still alert and knew what was going on.
He was at peace with dying and the only thing that made him sad was that he didn't want to leave my mom alone. They loved each other so very much, a love I am so thankful to have witnessed through the years.
Thanks for reading, if you read all the way through, I know it was a long one. It felt good to type it out.
I needed some time away from here but I am back now so I'll try to post more.

Caught up on all the "drama" and "life" just now from our gang. Love having you all as a source and friendship. I just got back last night from 10 days away. 3 on way to Vacation at the beach, stopped in NOLA to see son and family then on to Panama City Beach, Florida for a week. Turned out to be good weather, no rain and just warm enough to be able to sit out and enjoy the sand by noon or so.
I started out thinking I'll stick to my routine I've been following since January and then. Decided just to enjoy myself. Didn't go crazy and couldn't eat nearly like I had in past. Just a few frills here and there like pumpkin bread from Starbucks ( my absolute favorite) an ice cream cone or two and some higher carb lunches. Haven't weighed yet but I did some serious walking too so don't feel I've gained much and will join in to the 5:2 crew. Just not Monday for me. I do better when I'm work so it will be Tues and Thurs most weeks.
Kim, I agree about adventure. I've realized that it's now or never for me. Hubs would be content I think to sit on porch and read FB and watch CNN. I'm not there and hope to not be for several years. He is 5 yrs older than me and not in great health so I kinda understand but....
I'd say position yourself to live life now.
Coops, it sounds like you've had a real struggle. I'm hoping health wise you have recovered and that you can find a school that will bring some fulfillment at least.
Wonder how Sarah is? Haven't heard from her in a while. And others too.
Well, back to the salt mines tomorrow. I really would be independently wealthy so I could quit work. ????

Did a good fast yesterday... not brill today, but could of been worse. I will reign it in tomo and fast again Thurs.
I am getting a bit concerned cos when I eat I get a tender feeling in my middle, around my tummy... perhaps I am over filling my sleeve? Anyone else get this? I also seem to be getting heartburn/acid too... I have been taking some Rennies if it gets too bad. I think I gotta really start looking more at the quality of my food? (not that it is rubbish, but you know what I mean)

As predicted scale was up for weigh in yesterday but I had a good day eating wise, not quite a full fast day but certainly down on what I have been eating. I need to get rid of the carb craving and I suppose that will take a few days.
Kim your post was amazing so heartfelt and honest. I really like that you took notice of Craig's dream to bike round the world and took practical steps to see if you could be part of that. It's sad that it looks like you won't. I have no advice as to whether he should go off on adventures with his biker friend but you know him and have been with him for so many years and so only you really know if your relationship would survive this. Envious of your trip to Mull as it is supposed to be one of the most beautiful places in UK. Pity you couldn't make any pit stops, coops and I are only about 1 hour away from each other and I'm sure we would have made an effort to come and meet up.
Denise so glad to hear that the fusion is working, you must be so relieved. Please do keep on following the doctors instructions.
Georgia is hard getting back from holiday isn't it and going back to work even harder.
Coops hope work isn't too bad this week and that something suitable comes up on job front.
Week in Scotland was lovely and lazy but last week with mum was more frantic. I supervised the renovation of a wc and bathroom, sorted decorated and got a new carpet in a bedroom and had a quick tidy up of front and back gardens. I have now come home for a rest. Mum herself was in good form and it was nice to have the time to spend with her. Like Coops work starts again this week but I have been selfish and taken unpaid leave for a week so I can have some down time. This week at work we have our new students for September coming in for a trial. Usually there are so many staff around that we fight for jobs and the time goes so slow so I thought 'sod it' I'll have the week off.
Love to everyone x

I forgot to weigh this morning. I did good on eating...
My horse back riding jeans give me a little muffin top, motivation!
Woohoo Kim, great results!
Georgia that sounds like a great trip.
I am suffering from tree pollen allergies...feeling a little cruddy.
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I'm up for it, mondays?
And it was a LOOOOOONG one too! It is complicated for sure. We have spent up to a year apart and kept the connection in the past... He takes off for NZ once or twice a year for a month or more. I have taken off through the years, but not as much as him... I am looking forward and planning for my own adventure time with or without him depending on the circumstances. At this time he has more money than I, and he is a cheapskate... but he has in the past paid for one or two of my adventures, after I had supported him in some activity. For instance, he has paid for my bike and done all the repairs on his dime... I do think it is a risk, but really, I want him to be happy, and I want me to be happy also... We have been through a lot of crazy adventures together, only a couple of points did it involve motorcycles... I asked him the other day what his top of the desire list was (I already knew...) and it the around the world motorcycle trip. If he waits much longer, he may be too old to do it. I gave it a try to see if I was able to join on a bike, at least for part of it, and I'm just not suited. So thats it. If we rent the house and I live in the studio, I will be getting half the monetary benefit from that... and will use it to travel most likely. If we can come up with a plan, it will be with Craig. This trip to Scotland is killing my savings... I need to make some more money to do what I want.... The moving into the studio will cost money too... needs a bathroom, separate meter, hot water.... and we have to do the work to move a bunch of stuff somewhere to make room to iive in a smaller place. He would just as soon get rid of everything and hit the road. I like having a home base, however small. We are at 20 years of marriage, and 3 before that.... it has had its ups and downs, but seems better than ever now. Craigs name: Craig means "Rocky Outcropping" and the Maclaines motto is "Conquer or Die" My name Kim means "Noble or brave" and my last name Scotts family moto is "Love". Which fits us pretty well.... and makes for some spectacular fights and passion.

Yep. I am so proud of myself that I got over the "hump" and learned to ride, even my no compliment husband says I am a good rider. It has been a kick in the ass for me. I do think most of the anxiety is the bike. I don't LOVE it enough to make up for the injury downside. It also doesnt go well with my other activities.... except adventure and hanging with the hubby... which are also important to me. I still don't want to sell the bike, or think of never getting on it again, but really... I need to draw a harder line about that. I support Craig in going after his dreams, even if they are not with me... but I am making lists of things we might do together that are fun and adventurous.... I don't want to stop having fun and adventure!. He has a lady friend I like very much, a motorcycle nut to the end... who he is tentatively planning on traveling with on a couple of trips....he is even talking about her using "my" bike. She doesn't want to do it unless its ok with me....and they both have said they are not interested in each other "that way". I know I run the chance of losing him in such a situation, but think these trips are better and safer in a pair of riders. (Alaska to South America...and perhaps beyond) I would have to rent the house and move into the studio, so we have some income to support such a trip. I hate to move, even just into the back yard , but would be willing to do it with the idea that I would also have the option of taking off and traveling at some point... I won't make enough with Social Security to pay my bills, so have to have a second income of some kind.... I might set up a studio someplace along their way, and have a visit for a while on their trip or something like that... or just go out with my car and see America. This is all stressful, but so goes Adventure! I lived in India by myself several times, and know I can do it.
I have found that when you Adventure travel it changes you. If you don't keep in contact with loved ones... and fill them in on your activities, and they do the same for you... you meet up later and have little in common. I don't want this to happen with Craig. On the other hand, he is a self centered wild man, which is part of his charm...and part of the deal is to let him go and be who he is.... We both are attracted to adventuresome people, we met in India, both on adventures, and it is our stated goal as a couple.
We have our tickets to go to London in June, then pick up his mom and sis at the airport, pick up a car and do a 3 week road trip through Scotland. We will visit the Isle of Mull, where he has relatives and can access the families historical property. That should be a blast. I just had to scratch up the money to make it happen. Its the first trip out of the country in years.... right before my surgery I went to New Zealand for a few weeks. 5 Years! I had to take care of my little dog in her senior years, and really could not in good conscious leave her here with a sitter at that time. She was my girl through thick and thin. And my moms final days...But now, I am free to make some moves again. I have tentatively gotten back on the wagon, have lost 5 pounds. Truth time. I was up to 210. (ouch!!!) It was easy as pie to do so.... and even with several weight loss starts, I just couldn't do it. Up Up Up. I am going to try to lose 10 by Scotland... and make the slow crawl down the scale again. I did it twice, I can do it again. I used the 5 day pouch test, am on the 6th day now, and the carb cravings are way down. I am going to go back into the 5:2 now... and watch myself closely. I have one co worker who has shadowed my many weight loss trips... When I lost the weight with surgery the first time, she started walking to lose weight. For her, eating everything she wants and not saying no was what she wanted. She gets up at 1:30 in the morning and walks for 5 hours 6 days a week. Goes to bed at 7:30 at night. She loves it. Personally, I would rather be fat! But it works for her so far. She lost 130 pounds doing it. (she did diet at first to lose the weight and the walking is more her maintenance) Her body is a mess, and I hate to think what will happen to her if she loses her ability to walk. She can't even stand still, and walks in place at meetings, during breaks and class.... I am continuing to do dance twice a week, and walk twice a week, but my knee is worse and worse... I am wearing a brace... which helps a bit. Getting old sucks! Anyway, thats where I am. Getting along with Craig pretty well, work has its ups and downs... if I had the money I would probably quit.... but its not horrible by any means. Looking forward to Scotland... Family doing well. All the flowers are blooming in the yard.
Always nice to hear from you all. Coop, hope you work out your situation soon... hugs to you.... Sheryl, A new man... a new NICE man.... how exciting! Enjoy! Georgia, you are a touch stone for me... inspiration! Cathy always a rock. I will be so close to you guys, if I was on my own I would drop by for sure! That would be a blast to meet you guys in person! Denise, chin up.... I know about eating like a bird... I have lost this first 5 pounds eating between 450-800 cals a day. That is CRAY CRAY! I will be upping it starting today, but have to really watch the carbs and such. fingers crossed and thank MFP every morning. You would think you could eat anything you want and stay at 210.... but NOOOO.

@@coops it is so hard when your work life fills you with dread. Many tough times in my life, work was my refuge from the storm of other tragedies in life. Is the problem the people there? Is there anything you can shift in your internal views or thoughts that can make this bearable.
I highly recommend a puppy:) Ok, I am kidding, my new puppy is a maniac, so much work! She fills me with joy tho. My other dog Suzy has gained weight and her coat is better now that she has a pup to play with. Suzy was depressed and lonely after the big dog died last year. She is so much less needy, more active, etc. They both bring me smiles and joy and kisses all day long. Everyone that meets them now love my dogs and it's largely because Bella is a bundle of joy. My vet adores her - he gave her shots on Wednesday and she kissed him right after. He said he just loves her rough and tumble, outgoing personality. She is no scardey pup!
Bella caught a mouse out in the large yard last weekend! She is a tough little girl. Wednesday of next week she will be fully protected from parvo so I can take her everywhere (I have been protecting her from dog areas due to parvo risk) and I need to keep her socialized so she doesn't become one of those bossy terriers!
Anyway, I guess I am pretty happy gettin so many hugs and kisses from both man and beasts these days! I have a strong desire for physical affection, and everything in life feels better when I get it.
Coops, hope you can get some hugs and feel better! Puppy breath is good too.
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(HUGS) Denise. Sorry you are feeling blue. I know I said this before, but I wouldn't date while feeling depressed. I think it sends the wrong energy and you risk attracting the wrong people. I guess I have a belief system about energy or personae that we project and what that brings into our lives. When I was anxious and had inner turmoil, I was not a good relationship candidate.
Ok, I am biased...I am still hurt and disappointed on some level that a year ago I fell for a guy who was essentially using dating as part of his therapy. Seriously ,I felt used and manipulated. I guess it's a good thing Scott was too messed up in the head (not saying you are, but he is nuts) to have sex so at least THAT dimension wasn't on the table. I still feel the sting when I realize that I was part of the fake life facade he was building. The way he showed me off to select people...the way he intentionally made sure his freakng THERAPIST saw us together. I guess I carry baggage, I probably used dating as some sort of self validation too, but I will never do it again now that I have been on the other side of it. It made me feel bad, it made me frightened to realize how"all in" I felt for a guy who has serious emotional problems. Ok, that rant has nothing to do with you -but it shook me up.
One of the cool things about Michael is he hasn't/doesn't do the whole online profile thing. It's true we met online, but not from a dating website. There is something about online dating that makes people behave differently over time. He has a good galpal who is a heavy POF dater - and he has watched her do this for like 7-8 years and it mirrors my experiences and my impressions of about 80percent of the men I met on POF. She is very frustrated and depressed over her love life too.
I cant describe it well, but it has been refreshing to get to know someone who isn't caught up in that hamster wheel - at the same time as my being fed up with it. Downside is I am becoming very enamored with him, and yet his vices make him questionable long term partner material. For now, I am content and happy and just need to watch my emotional attachment.
I do like it alot that I am no longer "dating" but rather seem to have acquired a fun, caring, tall, athletic, good looking, articulate and social, great conversationalist and affectionate....dare I say "boyfriend"? Pinch me, this must be a dream.
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I'm so sorry you're not feeling great Coops. I know how you feel. I am really disappointed that I can't see to lose the weight I've gained. I feel really fat even though it's only 10 lbs. I've said this before, it feels like 25. I know it has to do with all the muscle I've lost.
It seems ridiculous that I have to eat next to nothing in order to lose. It's heart breaking actually. I can't eat like a bird the rest of my life.
My love life is weird. I am actually dating 3 guys, but I don't really care if I continue to see any of them. I think it's me. When I am depressed, even things I normally enjoy, I have no interest in.It's a classic depression symptom.
Funny how I thought that if I just lost 100 lbs , I would be happy.

@@coops Is work a challenge?
My life is going GREAT, but I have been eating junk food for about a week. It feels a little like a binge - only not stuffing myself kinda binge, more of a sleever grazing kind of binge. Not good. I don't know why, but I have some anxiety about things at work etc so something is bothering me that i haven't surfaced emotionally. Heck, it could even be because my love iife is going SO WELL that I am internally stressed - waiting for the shoe to drop? I am not conscious of feeling that way, but something is making me eat junky food.< /p>
I know I need to eat clean/do a reset and get all the crap out of the house. Michael mentioned he'd gained 3# since we met (he is very weight conscious!) so I can't really blame him. He eats less than I do when we are together - it is the junk i have let creep in that is the problem.
How is everyone doing? Its suppossed to hit 80 degrees today - I am so happy!!! Bring on summer - this is a prelude at least!

Hello all, just thought I would say a quick Hi. I am ok, not great but ok... still a lot of things going on and I'll be perfectly honest, I am struggling through taking each day at a time. Not doing great on the food front either, haven't fasted properly for many weeks and this has lead to the weight I lost coming back... of course this doesn't help any sort of positive mind set that I am trying to adopt.
But I will keep chugging along...
Hope you are all ok x

Denise, can't wait to see some pics of the new grand once she arrives!
Kim, you have more guts the. Me I can tell you that. I'd never have made it down the driveway probably. I do think as I get somewhat older I am becoming more anxious about stuff I never was before. I can see my Mother coming out! . She was a beautiful person but very fearful on a lot of counts. Anyway, if it makes you anxious I'd ditch it. (Figuratively. )
Here's my view til Sunday. Hubs and I enjoying a week st Panama City Beach FL. Swing through New Orleans first for a couple days to see the Grandgirls and Son/DIL then drove here on Sunday. Nice. A little chilly yet in the mornings but very relaxing and that's my goal.
 

Kim, I don't remember you ever telling us that the bike was causing anxiety. I thought you were enjoying it!
Sheryl, I don't know why you said you must be crazy.
The gambling would bother me too. I guess if he can afford it, and knows his limitations, it's ok. I know a number of people who gamble because we have a casino in our town. They take a certain amount to spend and leave when it's gone. The ones you worry about are the ones that plan to spend a certain amount and spend it, then go to the ATM machine.
I think as long as you enjoy his company and you're doing something you enjoy, like learning to golf, why not keep enjoying his company? He's not asking you to go gambling with him so have fun until you don't enjoy him anymore.
My daughter turned 35 Friday and we celebrated her birthday all weekend long, so I am afraid to get on the scale.
My daughter in law is expecting my grand daughter any day now.

FWIW, I wouldn't date while feeling blue. Even if a great guy showed up, you might not be in the right headspace to enjoy it. I have access to different types of men - urban, outdoorsman,culture vultures, car guys, Harley guys, sports nuts , golfers etc. - all that. For me, I don't worry too much that we like doing the same things 100percent because I am pretty busy. This probably sounds odd, but my attraction is more based on can we talk endlessly and when we do stuff together enjoy each other's company. I am into horses, dogs, town festivals, culture, hiking, wine tastings, live music, dancing, beach, mountains but not like a triathlete..Haha. I seldom encounter a man whose interests overlap much with mine but it works. The main showstopper for me is guys who don't seem to have any real passion - kind of checked out. I've tried that and I get bored. I also get bored if they aren't intelligent,outgoing,verbal, interesting and active. The details are negotiable. I'd rather be with a hunter/outdoorsman (even though I won't participate in most of it) than a dude who does basically nothing because I need someone who is more "on fire" than that. I guess I need passion in a match, passion for life. I figure I have girlfriends to do my stuff with...and meetups or specific activity partners for things like hiking or live music.
Michael has a plan to have me actually golfing by the end of summer. I was kind of excited to hear that as I really want to learn, but he is above average golfer so wonder if he'll really have the patience! He has been an athlete his whole life, is politically conservative, gambles - none of those match me, but we get along well, I am very attracted to him, he is fun and a little zany...we can talk forever, even on touchy subjects (politics,religion,death penalty,abortion) and that is such a rare thing.
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My weight is"ok" -I am at 156, under goal but about 10# over where I want to be. I have to admit, it is a positive affirmation to date men who think I look like a goddess the way I am.
It is hard when everyone around me is so much smaller. I continually remind myself that I have a big frame/big build and nothing will change that.
In my youth I was very hurt by remarks about having wide shoulders - built like a football player (American football). I have recently recieved compliments on how atttractive my arms and shoulders are (wearing a top that shows some shoulder skin, but no cleavage). I am trying to form new "tapes" in my head about how my appearance is perceived. As a girl, it seemed the whole universe expected females to be waiflike (remember the heroin chic look??) and I know that just isn't true - even though it was pounded into my brain that I was always too big.
Michael brought up out of the blue that he is attracted to alot of different"types" as long as they are fit AND have curves. He told me skinny women are a turnoff. It shouldn't matter what another person thinks, but I am trying to use that messaging to just kill, once and for all, those inner negative messages.
I know I am not fat, and and I don't really look great skinny (did that in 2014 by accident) -just accepting , no embracing, the wonderful assets God graced me with is the challenge of 2016.

Happy belated birthday, Cathy!! Hope you had a good day! They sneak up on us, dont they??

Happy Easter ladies!
I am spending it with my new beau and his friends...very nontraditional!
He taught me how to swing a golf club y yesterday...we went to the driving range. He is a great golfer...he was better than anyone at the range. He was a firm but patient teacher..it's harder than it looks. I have only known him just over a month but developing a little crush - it's fun, like dating should be! Why has it taken me so long to find just a nice smart easy to be with, athletic, good looking man? Anyway, not sure it will goanywhere...but enjoying the ride.
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Happy Birthday Cathy!!!!
How was Mamma Mia?
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Lsereno, good to "see" you again, Old Friend! I think we are pretty close in WSL timeframe. I, too, have had to get on the losing bandwagon again. We can and are doing it! Amazing to me that most of us here are 4-10 years out and have been successful in keeping the majority of weight loss gone!!!! [emoji23]

New puppy...the wookie. ..along with my suzy baby. I love dogs and this really cheered me!
Both of course rescues (although suzy had good care just no training or handling until I got her). Bella a true rescue...found on an Indian reservation and was scooped up by a rescue organization because they use little dolls like her as "bait" to train their fighting dogs. Horrible. ..so glad there are people who care so much!

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