peacequeen

I don't mind saying,,you're hot!

Thanks, everyone. I know that God is the ultimate healer and I have to just put this in His hands.

Prayers going up! I hope all goes well for the baby. Keep the faith and believe all will work out.

Your in my prayers!

Prayers offered up.XX

My prayers for your family and the baby, God bless!!

I am praying for healing for your little niece. Your in my prayers.

IVH is bleeding into the brain. There's more info here :,http://www.aboutkidshealth.ca/En/ResourceCentres/PrematureBabies/AboutPrematureBabies/BrainandBehaviour/Pages/Intraventricular-Hemorrhage-IVH.aspx
Thoughts are with you. Keep us posted!

I am praying for you and your family, believing that the Lord is more than able and will bless and perform a miracle that will have the doctors scratching their heads. Praying God grant you peace, everything will work out, faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Be encouraged :-D

Praying

Praying now.

My prayers are with you and your Family!

You have my prayers. I know nothing about that condition, but kids prove doctors wrong all the time! Don't give up hope! (((Hugs)))

Thanks! I don't see bananas but I can invision them in my head.lol

Omg girl! Don't post about this sleeve felony! The sleeve police on this board will chew you up and spit you out, so to speak!!! seriously tho, I was progressing super and was ready to get off the shakes so I called my dr. And got the ok to go ahead and try some new things and that was a good peace of mind. Congrats on doing well!!

Thank you, everyone for the outpouring of warm wishes for me. I really do appreciate it and needed to hear positive words of encouragement. My parents passing has been a while but was one of the events in my life that really set off my depression and anxiety. So I have been in consistent therapy since then for that issue as well as every other issue I've faced including my eating disorder. I know it has had lingering effects on me and I have just taken it one day at a time (as the song goes) to help get through it. I wonder sometimes if I made the right choice of surgery considering my mental stability,,not that I'm crazy but just the ups and downs that come with dep. and anx. I failed my first psych eval but passed the second,,not sure I was completely honest in the second one because I wanted the surgery so bad. I do love my sleeve and not sure I could go through with bypass. I think my sleeve is doing what it's supposed to but I think I'm abusing it right now. Each one of you have given very good advice. I'm going to try going back to the basics (again) and I know I definitely need exercise. I haven't just been lying around, I do keep busy but I know it's not the same as putting effort in to break a sweat and get that heart rate pumping. I see my therapist today,,and yes he has experience working with people with eating disorders. He sees several other patients who have had wls so he's really familiar with the process and what goes along with it..but there's only so much he can do. I know it's up to me to actually follow through with the suggestions he makes and work on the game plan he has set forth for me. I'm really going to try harder, I agree that a support group of some sort would probably benefit me. Going to look into that right away. Thank you all again.

Through tears,,I'm just thinking,,I wish I had a love button on this thing because your response is so perfect. Thank you, OTR.

Through tears,,I'm just thinking,,I wish I had a love button on this thing because your response is so perfect. Thank you, OTR.

Peacequeen,
I wondered where you went. Suddenly we were missing your posts. I'm sorry that things are rough right now. Death is never easy nor is there such a thing as 'closure.' Oh, I do hate that word. I've lost many people close to me. I can tell you that your pain lessens, and your heart finds a place to put that pain, but darned if it doesn't come out at the damnedest times! Time is not really a huge factor, grief is the same. Months or years from the event.
But, besides that, you said other things were going on. Can you tackle one problem at a time? Compartmentalize?
My surgeon told me that you have to eat to excess for about a year to permanently stretch your sleeve.
While you were gone someone started a post on MFP. Many people added their names to befriend each other. Maybe adding lots of new friends would help you?
To kick you when you are down is cruel, so i hope that nobody here gives you a lecture. You made that first crucial step by reaching out. Start taking things one day at a time and don't look at the big picture yet.
Gentle hugs,
Judy

Through tears,,I'm just thinking,,I wish I had a love button on this thing because your response is so perfect. Thank you, OTR.

I am sorry about your parents. Even in the midst of despair your sleeve is still working for you - we are all glad you reached out and you have what it takes to get back on trAck. Keep checking in with us - OTR is good about keeping us all in line:). Praying you find comfort.

I wish I knew the words to say to make it all better. I'm not sleeved yet but my best friend died in August. I never knew that grief can make you physically sick. I've gonna from not eating to eating everything. I no longer go to the gym but its because I feel exhausted. I'm getting better though and hopefully by the time I get a date I will be better. I will be praying that God grants you peace as you deal with your loss.

It's tough when you lose control of your own life. This is the one thing that you can work to control. If you had surgery in the town you live in see if the office has a support group, if not look online to see if you can find one in your area or someone that you can meet with face to face to help you along. My fitness pal is a great tool and so is this site but having support around you that are living a similar life can really help.
Good luck I have faith that you can get yourself back on track. You have made the a breakthrough already by realizing what your doing.

You can do this. You've done it, and you know what to do. It isn't too late, and you can still get back to the habits you need to have. Get back on MyFitnessPal and track, eat Protein first, etc.
What does your therapist say? Are you being treated for your food issues at all? Do you have a therapist who has experience in working with food issues?
I'm so sorry to hear about your parents.
(Hugs!)