gizzysm0mmy

Hi Everyone! I am new to this and I am so glad I found this website. I still have so many worries and concerns about life with the band, but at the same time I am more worried about what my life and health will be like if I do not lose this weight!! My insurance does not cover the surgery unless considered medical necessary so I have to go on a 7 month diet monitored by my family physician and provide weights from the past three consecutive years proving me being overweight. It's almost as if Insurance is hoping I'll change my mind!! I hate having to wait but than again this may be a blessing and get me prepared for my new life after surgery. I've already had blood work and breathe test done. Now I just need to have my sleep study, psychology evaluation, and physical. Afterwards I'll meet with the nurse for my 4 week low carb diet before the surgery and to discuss more detail about life with the band. food is my comfort, my boredom, my sadness, my happiness and my drug!! That's how I've become to this size. I still see that person I used to be in my early twenties and feel trapped in this body. I guess I'm worried that I will miss being able to just pick up a candy bar or bag of chips or soda and eat to my liking. I'm afraid that I wont be able to let go! I think of all the failed diets in my past and worry that I will fail this! I can be strict on myself and eat healthier foods, but that hunger craving is always there!!! It will be nice to be able to eat to live instead of live to eat!!