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I'm so excited for you!!! I'm still in the waiting to be approved stage...submitted 11 days ago and the wait is killer! Knowing that you're in the liquid pre-op stage - - as hard as I'm sure it is - - must be so exciting since it's making it seem REAL!
Best of luck to you with everything - Pre-op, surgery, post-op, etc. I hope it all goes nice and smooth and really quick!
By the way, your pic is beautiful!

You can do it! This will be the best decision you have ever made! Not only for your kids but for you too... All of those other things that you have chosen to ignore over the years will also be your victories! Welcome to a whole new life, and a whole new you! Be proud of your self... You are about to start a whole new story for yourself and your family!

You go! Thank you for sharing. You've got great incentive and you are going to do great!

It's good to be going through all this angst now and get it out of your system.. My favorites that will go away are beer and champagne - no carbonated drinks, not to mention the alcohol. But the feeling of being finally at your proper weight will be so great, you won't mind the changes in your diet. I hate running, too. I walk.

Thanks for taking the time to read my blog post! I appreciate the support! I wrote it when the feelings were SO raw so that when I lost this motivation I could go back and read it and reread over and over again...I'm sure I will have moments when I'm afraid but those won't compare to what I felt last night.
Thank you SO much for the support. I love this place

Made me tear up too. As a mother and grandmother I understand about getting healthy for "them" but I think to overcome your fear and anxiety you have to decide to get healthy for "you". You are the one that has to live in your skin, no one else.
Getting the VSG is the best gift I have ever gotten let alone done for myself. I actually caught myself getting resentful that I waited so long to get it done (I'm 57 next month) but you know what? This is all in God's timing - He loves me and knows exactly what I need and when I need it.
He loves you too :-)

Your post really hit home with me too. I think all of us with kids, especially younger kids, have similar moments. Mine was a few weeks ago when my daughter (she's 3) asked me for a piggyback ride and then said "It doesn't work. You're too big!" when her legs didn't fit around me like they do when her daddy gives the ride. Ouch! But definitely affirmed my decision to move forward with my surgery. Now, I am excited and looking forward to the day when I can give her that piggyback ride properly!

Definitely a life changing moment. I wish you the very best as you move forward in this new season of your life.

Exactly! I'm looking forward to those moments when I'm not "too big" to do things with them! It's kind of silly when I think about myself....I'm scared to have surgery for ME (afraid of pain, complications, etc) but then when I think of THEM and their future with me being so unhealthy and out of shape it's almost like I get a false sense of bravery and for a brief moment forget about MY fears because I owe it to THEM. Ahhhh, if I can just keep up this bravery until AFTER I have surgery

You go, girl!

You made me choke up. I don't have kids, but your words rang so true! Good luck in everything, wish you nothing but the best!

Wow, what a powerful moment. Thank you for sharing. Your daughter is lucky to have you for a mom.

Your post is very "close to home" and I totally identify and empathize with you! Your reasoning and commitment are echoed in my heart and soul.
Welcome to the healthy sleevers club!
I wish you many many happy smiles into the eyes of your family as you put yourself first so you can be what you long to be for them!

Ha! Way to work that sleeve you sexy thang!!!
..But this post is WORTHLESS without a picture! Put up or shut up

Oh sweet lady! I could have written this post myself but since I'm having a 'strong' day I can tell you this: you ARE doing the right thing IF this is what you want! Nothing in life is ever easy, but you have to just keep rolling with the punches. I am like you in not telling anyone (besides a few close friends and my husband) that I'm having surgery. I've had to go to wayyyyy too many appointments and I feel like my boss and coworkers HAVE to know something is up...then again, maybe they're all too busy to notice? I hope so
Don't be so hard on yourself! It sucks that you're having so much come up over and over again that seems like it's getting in the way, but the fact remains that you're still trucking along and that is GREAT!
Take one day at a time, celebrate your successes (like the candy bar - - yay you!!!) and I'm sure your surgery date will be here before you know it!!!

Just wanted to wish you luck! Originally I was wanting to be banded...thought it was less scary than permanently being sleeved...but the more i thought about it and researched it, the more the sleeve looked to be the way for me to go.
I hope your journey is quick and uneventful and you're on your road to being sleeved soon

I can TOTALLY relate! I WANT this surgery, yet one of my fears is that I will become depressed when I can't eat as MUCH of my favorite things as I used to...how silly! It's not that I can't eat my favorite things, it's that I can't eat AS MUCH...and I wonder if that will make me depressed! SO DUMB that I let food control me the way that it does.
I haven't had those thoughts lately....this past week my thoughts have been how NICE it will be to have some new (smaller outfits)...ummm yeah. I don't think I will even have surgery until August, yet I'm already NOT doing any shopping because I want smaller outfits...I can't wait for the surgery so my skinny body can catch up with my skinny mind

I completely relate to your fears. I was just talking to my counselor about this. I just found out that I was approved for surgery and I have been trying for 6 months to get here. I thought I would be extremely excited, but I'm scared - primarily that it's "real" now and I'm going to have to give up my security blanket (food) and cope with my feelings in other ways. So scary! I have never been able to diet successfully because of food addiction. I wish I could go to rehab for this addiction, but it doesn't exist! That's kind of how I view VSG - it's my rehab that will force me to restrict my food since I haven't been able to on my own. Thank you for putting yourself out here - just know that you are not alone in these feelings. Take care:)

Even when I could, I hated running, but I did it. It has been one of the only ways I was able to keep my weight down. I actually got down to 130 in the 1980s by running 7 miles 3 times a week, but I couldn't keep it up. Now I don't run at all, and like you, can't even do a few steps. I live in a college town, and watching all these young folks jogging around the neighborhood makes me realize that I do want to be able to run again. I couldn't imagine I would ever want to do that again...until I couldn't do it.

I hear and feel you girl! I have all those fears too, but I take heart in the fact that when I was on the bernstien diet (VLCD with virtually no carb and no fat) I lost all of my cravings for food to the point where I had to set an alarm to remind myself to eat. My desire was just not there... and the motivation of the moving scale was phenominal... what wasnt was the price tag of $600.00 a month. You can do this.. .we will all be victorious!!

I understand your feelings. This preop diet is a true test when you are living with young kids and a husband that doesn't cook. Your concerns sound very normal to me. I'm already trying to find something else that will comfort me outside of food.
I was told to stop drinking 15 mins prior and wait for 30 mins after. There is a fantastic book to read: The Experts Guide to WeightLoss Surgery by Garth Davis. I've read it about 3 times already.

I alos have Aetna! I live in the Phoenix area.
I can't fall asleep without my husband and also have a breastfeeding baby who usually wakes up 3+ times a night so I am going to have to wake up & pump at those times & I am worried it's going to count against me but it's just not something I can help.

I went for my sleep study and found that I do have sleep apnea. Tonight I go for my second sleep study to get fitted for the CPAP. I'm not gonna lie, I barely slept at all the first time. It was impossible for me to fall asleep with all of those wires and stuff on me, plus the thought that someone was watching me really creeped me out. You do eventually fall asleep and don't even realize it but I woke up constantly. Other people tell me they fell right to sleep and slept fine all night. I'm preparing not to get any sleep again tonight, LOL..It's not bad having the study though, just plan it so that you have nothing to do the next day so that you can catch up on your sleep..good luck with it..

It sounds like we are about on the same timeline! My 2nd of 4 appts is the 14th! & my sleep study is the 20th.
Good luck at your sleep study, I am so nervous for mine.