Holding Steady

Well, after the last entry I continued to hold steady. When I went back to solid foods, I jumped back up to 209.5 and there I've stayed until today. I'm back to 208 lbs. I'm starting to wonder if I do have a leak. Once in a while, I do feel my food. That is, I get a little bit of a lump for a moment until it passes through. But it's becoming more rare. I did last night for the first bite or two at dinner, but I think it had been a week since that had happened prior to that. When I first transitioned back to solid foods after this latest fill, it was a daily occurrance. I'm not too worried. I figure a port and/or tubing replacement is nothing compared to the band itself, so onward we go. Besides, just having the band there (for me, anyways) helps me to make better decisions and is keeping me from gaining the weight back.

Deep in my heart, I'd really like to break that 200 lb mark. I'm confidant that I will, someday. I've developed a great patience about this. I'm not in a hurry about anything. I figure, "all in good time". I'm happy, I feel better than I have in years-other than that damn hip that those docs screwed up in my gall bladder surgery. I'm active, I have energy. I feel better in my clothes. I could go on and on. I suppose the only downer is that I've noticed that in my face I'm showing signs of aging. Those fat stores really kept me looking young. As much as I hate it, I don't think the obesity was worth the look of youth.