Don't worry this entry isn't going to be about me being sad or depressed. However, being a little sad isn't a bad thing this time of year. Went to my first suuport group last night and the guest speaker was the doctor that will be doing my psych evaluation. He was talking about the holiday blues and what happens during this time of year. I have to admit I do suffer from this from time to time but I think it's a little more obvious this time. Not sure if it's because of the surgery or just something else. Understanding it and working through it is probably the only way to heal from it.

I believe that my morning for food has really taken shape this Christmas. I'm still about 4 months from surgery but I think my relationship with food was so time consuming that I am missing it already. I am trying to look at it as a change in relationship rather than a loss. I mean food will always be there but it depends on me and how I react to it. I really want food to live and not to live for food. I have more to work on as I enter into my 3 month supv diet and all my testing but I know that I can make it and know that the end results will be great