I'll get by with a little help from my friends....
By mnardi123
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Okay folks, I'm 6 weeks out and would like to build an online support system. The days of just popping something in my mouth without any physical consequences (except my fat butt, double chin, jiggly arms etc.) are long gone. If I accidentally or even purposely put something in my mouth (you know it's the "what could happen it I just tasted it" syndrome) I get stomach pains.
How am I going to do this for life? I know, I was in this abusive relationship with food and I'm now in "rehab" but how do I become one of those people who eat to live and not live to eat? Especially when I'm the go to gal for culinary creations, it took me 6 months to develop what I think is the world's best cinnamon roll and when I make ravioli I make my own ricotta cheese and pasta dough; and I make a NY Cheesecake that any New Yorker would have naughty dreams of. It's how I make extra cash for the holidays.
But food has also caused me so much pain, sadness and lack of self esteem and after 6 weeks post-op, my husband told me I was beautiful, I've been married 17 years and I haven't heard him call me beautiful in 14 years (I've been pretty, cute, sweet and even adorable). If anyone else is having these up and down feelings would you be willing to give a little help to this sleever?
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