Ugh..

Anyone who thinks getting WLS is the easy way out can kiss my ass! Lol thats all I have to say about that!

I have been struggling lately, it really sucks. To me it seems the further out I get the harder it does, I see some people early out saying how hard it is, yes it was hard, but around that time I was so turned off by food, I would forget to eat and had no interest in it at all!

I could watch others around me eat yummy foods and not mind at all. Now it seems like lately all I think about is food, I dont know why. I have been eating like crap lately, I want to eat when I am not hungry at all, I know its all head hunger and all that, but its just as hard to say no.

No food upsets me, so I can basicly eat anything if I wanted to. I feel like I am so new to all of this even though I have been sleeved for almost 9 months, Im not sure how much to eat at each meal, I try to see how much others are that are the the same ammount of time out and some people are eating 3oz, then I see some saying 5oz, its very confusing, I guess I am just scared about gaining weight back.

I've also been very tired lately, I havent had my labs done yet (so I know very bad) I have no insurance, so it will be at least over $1,000, I dont have that kind of money right now, my mom told me she would help me, but I will have to wait for that, I think maybe some of my levels may be off? I dont know, but I am still taking my vitamins on a regular basis.

Anyways, I know Im rambleing, I have no one in RL who has gone threw WLS so sometimes its frustrating when no one understands what you are going threw.