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Woman In Bathroom Becomes Hysterical After Looking In Mirror

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Over the weekend, the hubby and I took a little road trip down to Galveston Texas to tour the new Pleasure Pier. If you aren't from our area, let me explain. Galveston has many piers that jut out into the gulf. One had a hotel on it. After Hurricane Ike demolished what was left of the pier and building, the question of what to do with the space came up. So, Galveston put a carnival like space out onto the pier. There are restaurants, a merry go round, roller coaster, log ride etc. as well as all the fun carnival games you remember from childhood. The place just opened this summer and we'd been too busy prior to this past Sunday to go down and look it over.

 

So, we started our afternoon sitting in the bar of the Bubba Gump Shrimp company enjoying some Cajun steamed shrimp, cold Shiner and people watching (my favorite sport). The place was packed, the staff was busy and the people watching was awesome. One customer was getting on the bartender's nerves to the point I was ready to open bets regarding who was gonna win the inevitable brawl (the bartender was a cute little blonde chick, about 100 pounds soaking wet). The brawl was everted by a smart manager who found an open table - far away from the bar- for the obnoxious customer.

 

In any event, I digress.

 

I ended up going to the toilet during our time @ Bubba Gump. Washing my hands afterward, I glanced into the mirror and almost laughed out loud. I was not the biggest chick in the mirror!! No disrespect to the other women in the toilet intended, this blog is after all, all about me and my journey.......but for the first time in a very long time, I was not the biggest chick in the bathroom !!!!. I did contain myself and stifled my laughter (they would have had me hauled out for insanity if I just burst into hysterical laughter after looking in the mirror) but I did giggle all the way down the stairs and back to the bar. Taking my seat on the bar stool by my hubby, he asks what happened in the bathroom.....and I told him. He just shook his head and laughed with me.

 

Again, I am amazed when I think of all the sad, little conditioning that has occurred over my 20+ years of obesity. Until Sunday, I wasn't aware that every time I was in a room, I was scanning to see if I was the fattest chick there........and sad to say, many times I was - the fattest chick in the room. All of the subconscious bull shit I've done to myself over the years continues to simply appall me. And it was so undeserved. I've always said being fat is 1) NOT a character flaw and 2) if that number was my IQ rather than my weight, we'd be excited!!! And I've believed that......but yet, here I was comparing myself to others and beating myself up without even knowing it.

 

Well, the beatings end here!.........let the love-in begin!!!



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Right on sister! I'm also guilty of seeing if I'm the biggest one in the room. I can't imagine a day when I'm not....

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I'm with ya! I WAS the fattest chick in the room EVERY time! I am also having trouble shifting the mindset with such rapid weight loss. I still haven't registered that I'm wearing an 18 and not a 30 and that it DOES look different now! ;) Pretty cool.....pretty cool.

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I could've written this post only in a different location. I've cried more in the past few months than I have in the past 10 years combined. I'm in a 18-20 from a 30-32 and it feels good.

2 months ago I was in the bathroom at the gym and I turned around in the stall and I didn't have to contort my body around the toilet or door. I could turn around like most normal sized people. I started crying. :D

Good for you! Truly.

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Cant wait to not wonder if my butt is as big as hers in any given situation. I don't feel that big however when I look at pictures I am mortified. Fairly certain my butt is typically bigger :(

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Cant wait to not wonder if my butt is as big as hers in any given situation. I don't feel that big however when I look at pictures I am mortified. Fairly certain my butt is typically bigger :(

I have the big "caboose" and a large "front end". What a picture! I'm MORE than curvy, in all directions! But I'm down close to 55 lbs about 11 weeks post-op and I actually do see it shrinking! I take measurements on my "surgiversary" and I do pictures (front, side and back) every 2 months.

You will get there...........the incredible shrinking butt is going to be YOU.........believe it!

As to not felling that big, it's amazing! I obviously think I'm smaller than I am (and was). I used to sport a large variety of bruises all over my body from trying to get through spaces I can't fit through, walking past walls and thinking I had room to spare, etc. If that's not a strong indication of a messed-up body image, I don't know what is!

I'm hoping my size will shrink down to what my brain thinks it really is.........so that I stop running into things! LOL :wacko:

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I live in Houston and did not know Galveston had this new attraction. I must go and check it out. Congratulations on your success and losing has never felt so good!

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