A little embarrassed...

Last night I came on to this site, and I ended up reading a couple of my past blog entries.

A little over a week ago, I was desperately wanting and hoping to get sleeved. After reading that, I felt a little silly about the complaining I've been doing so early on in the process. I knew exactly what I was getting myself into. I was able to get this procedure done with no complications (so far), and I should be grateful, not miserable!

So that's the way I felt before going to bed. However, I woke up really early to stressful thoughts that were unrelated to WLS and my diet. For the past 7 days, I haven't been able to run to food for comfort, so now I'm having to face issues that were really bothering me before. I had a mini-breakdown when I realized just how stressed and overwhelmed I felt with regard to all the changes that have taken place in my life over the past 3 years. With the economy crashing and destroying the value of my home, to the stress of work, to being a first time mom and being in a relationship I'm not happy in. But, the strange thing is that after my breakdown, I was fine. Even though my problems had not been resolved, I was able to face the pain I was in rather than turn to food.

This morning, after thinking about what happened, I decided to dig up the book I bought but never read, it's called Women Food and God by Geneen Roth. I'm going to read a chapter a day and try to resolve the lingering issues I have. I planned to start meeting with a therapist, but I must admit, I'm kind of skeptical of whether that would actually help me or not.

As for my progress on the clear liquids, I did very well yesterday. I think the "eat first- log later" approach worked much better than trying to pre-plan all my meals the day before. We'll see...