It's Been Almost A Month
I was banded on 8/7/2012, I had my first fill on Monday and I’m really not sure how I feel. I have more anxiety than before, I can't sleep well. Physically I’m alright, pain from the surgery is gone but emotionally I'm all over the place. I'm losing weight which is great, it's I guess the reality that one day I will be thin again and maybe that scares me a bit. My friends and family don't really understand why I would feel scared or uncomfortable in my body they all say that I’m ridiculous and give me lines like you’re lucky or your aren’t starving or you have a long way to go, don’t worry so much. In a way all of these statements are true, unfortunately when I’m lying awake a 2am they do not comfort me.
Maybe that is something, food was a comfort to me and now it’s gone. I guess I should find comfort in something else, but what?
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