One Week Out

I want to thank the people who commented on my last blog. Yes, I admit I have a food addiction. How do I know, well I dream of food and lots of it. Then I wake up and realize I cant eat any of it and it fills me with sadness. I dreamed last night that if I would have known you couldn't eat I might not have gotten the band. But then in my dream I said no, I would still get it. Those of us who are on the post phase of the band (short lived I do hope) are mourning our one true love. FOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have come to the realization that I never really tasted food. Not really enjoyed it. Ok you say "Oh Carla you enjoyed your food". Yes but not in the way food was meant to be enjoyed. I am on the pour off the spoon stage and that can really limit your choices. But, I pureed vegatable soup and had 3oz of that then mixed in 1oz of fat free regular yogurt. It was actually quite tasty. I would have never done this before, but I was trying to get some protein in my meal.

Until I actually realized I wasn't eating enough(I know this has never happened before), I was starving to death. Not starving like you gotta have that cheeseburger, starving like my system felt like I was actually for the first time in its life starving.