:decision: :decision: Well, it has been a little over 4 months since I have been banded and I have lost over 35 pounds since then:clap2: I just had my second fill on 1/28 and it has really gave me alot of restriction, I have just been able to take a couple bites of meat without being sick the past couple of days. Since the beginning of January I have started walking at the YMCA 2 to 3 times a week on the treadmill, walking and jogging. I think that has really increased my weight loss efforts.:eek: Plus it has cleared my mind. I started a new job a month before my surgery at a constuction site where we are building a 7 story hotel, I do all the office managing on the site. since I have lost over 35 pounds, I have noticed that I am getting alot of attention lately, which I love in a way, but I am also a little uncomfortable with. I have been married for almost 15 years and I love my husband very much. So I kind of feel guilty for enjoying all the attention I am getting at work. :noidea: I don't know if I completly trust myself if I were put in a situation. And that makes me mad about myself.:angry It kind of makes me want to sabatage my weightloss. Anyway, I may need to see a specialist about this one. I don't want to sabatage my weightloss because I feel healthier then ever. But the attention from one guy in particular worries me because he is attractive and I love the flirting. I know I am a horrible person. I had to talk about it somewhere though. There really is no one I can talk to about these feelings. I like to think that if I was actually in a situation to cheat that I wouldn't do it, but I also know how good the attention feels. My husband gives me attention but we are also very comfortable with just being laid back and not giving attention. we are intimant every week once or twice a week and it is satisfing, so you would think that would keep me from having bad thoughts about another guy. Unfortunently it doesn't:mad: I hate that about myself.