Week 11

Its been a long time since I've posted anything on this website. According to my doctor I've been doing well. Surgery day was April 26, 2010 I weighed 236lbs. First Dr Visit was on May 6 2010 (2weeks) no adjustment weighed 216lbs. Second Dr Visit June 22 (8 weeks post-op) weighed 206lbs. The last time I got on the scale July 13 2010 ( 11 weeks post-op) I weighed 200lbs. The sad thing is I still feel like I'm not doing enough. I still feel fat. All these issues are mental with some physical attributes. 1 I can eat more than the 4 ounces. 2 I'm still snacking I just choose health snacks like pretzels and baked chips and homemade salsa. I realize that at times i have to have something in my mouth so I bought sunflower seeds to take away the desire. This is harder than I thought it was going to be. I have no restriction. My friend at work talks about how she cant eat certain foods and I tell her I can anything I want without consequence. I want some restriction. My first fill was 1 cc. When I got the surgery there was 1.5 cc in the band so now I'm up to 2.55. My next appointment Isn't until August 22.That seems so far away. My Dr. was so proud of me the last time I saw him. I dont want to let him down. I take my vitamins. I try to consume plenty of water. Not easy. 36lbs lost in 11 weeks. I think I can do better. The sad thing is my goal weight is only 50 lbs. I am 14 lbs away. That makes it sound a lot better. I have 2 goals cut the snacking and consume only what I am supposed to and hit the gym hard.