You know I have been working out, and I lost 7lbs and feeling kind of good, then it had to happen, I needed to go get something for Easter, went to the store and they had shit for clothes, nothing fit. nothing looked good. Lane Bryant is not for me.. the thought of goint to Catherines is just killing me, the I looked at my self and said OMG I cannot wait for this lap band I need this weight off and I need it off fast. I am so tired of being over weight I am so tired of not being able to buy nice clothes at JC Penny or Lord n taylor so sick of the fact that I cannot buy a nice pair of sandles or shoes for that fact that I can put my foot into as for I cannot wear any shoe because my foot is so always so damb swollen. it suck, cant buy shoes any place, target, walmart, payless. dsw.. no were.. it sucks, sucks sucks, and I have had it.. when will it change..

I go for my phys eval. which OMG I am acting like a crazy person right now so they would probley have me committed if they saw me today..

so after that I hope I get the date. I say JUNE 1.. that is when I went it.. I am ready ready ready..

Ok.. well Easter is coming and yes there is candy and yes there is food. am I going to eat it.. ? well I am not going to binge I am not going to eat and eat like I have always done, ok I will have a little of something and that is it. I am also going to committ to my self that I will in deed go for a walk at least twice this Holiday weekend, Charlie (my chubby dauchound) needs it as well as I

Well I am going to bed.. I needed to get that off my chest..

before you know I will be buying a sexy pair of capri's a hot top and some gold colored sandles. for a summer night..

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