Fear and Frustration Take OVER!

I am afraid. I am frustrated. I began my journey 12/1/2009 with the Pre Surgery Diet. I thought it would kill me, but I made it with the hope of losing weight long term. Surgery went well 12/16/2009. I had lost 18 pounds by the day of surgery.

The month since has not been good. I have only lost 2 pounds for a total of 20. I want to cry. My family (5 kids and husband) sacrificed $12,000.00 for me. That is money I could have used to support them but instead I am afraid that the money has been wasted on me. The expese is worth it if I can lose the weight and get healthy. The walls of the doctors office are lined with before and after photos of people who have lost 100 + pounds in a years time. I am afraid of being a failure.

I have had one fill on 1/5/2010. I have another appointment on 1/26/2010. Hopefully, I will get another fill. I am exercising. I purchased a treadmill that I am actually using. The first day was 5 minutes of huffing and puffing. Now I can do 40 minutes of huffing and puffing (LOL).

I just needed to vent to other lapbanders who may understand my frustration and fears.

Thanks.:thumbup:

The first month is about healing, not about weightloss. Don't be afraid or frustrated yet - you are doing well to have lost 20, from what I know. As you get a couple of more fills in you it will all start to come together. It will all be fine.

*Not yet banded, myself, but I've been reading other bandsters and their stories while I'm waiting for my insurance stuff to pass and can at least tell you this is quite common.

For me the first 3 months went really slow, but after my 3rd fill, which was this past Sept I have lost 30lbs, making it a grand total of 53lbs. I was like you, questioning if this was a right move, trust me it was. We need patience!! You can look up my past blogs and see I went through the same thought process as you! so don't give up, this investment wasn't just for you but for your family as well. I bet they'll be so much happier having a healthy mommy and wife.

I agree with Kdee! I am a little over five months out, the first month, you need to concentrate on healing, your stomach is so swollen from the surgery. Then after a fill you will be restricted. The first month, your body is in a state of Shock and it doesn't know to start losing weight, you have to tell it to do it, by eating high protein and low carbs, then it will get the message and start to drop. I have lost 63 lbs so far 21 weeks since the band, you will shout when the scales start dropping, it is a JOURNEY that takes some time, relax, heal and you will adjust! I paid more than that for my band, cash and I felt the same way, that is why I work so hard to make this work! You will too! I am off to my support group meeting. Good Luck!

Thanks for your insight. I am trying not to panic. I just want this to work so badly. It has been a long time since I have been healthy and fit. I am having a hard time recalling those memories. My children will be proud to have a mommy that can do physical things with them.

I has revision surgery this past April (2009). My original surgery was December 2006. I was very successful the first time around. I lost 92 pounds. Since my revision in April, I have gained back 40 pounds. I am miserable. I don't know what to do. I am always hungary and nothing is like it was the first time around. I can eat everything in sight. My band has not slipped or moved. I just has a scan. Anyone have any advice?????