why do I sabotage myself???????????????

Hi

It is now five weeks until my appointment with the doctor and my first appointment with the surgeon. At my last doctors appointment he told me I needed to lose 10 kgs before I saw the surgeon and I haven't lost anything. In fact I have gained 2 ks!

Why can't I help myself? I am so angry with myself. Now I have to crash diet to try and get some weight off before the end of August. I feel awful. All my joints are aching and my feet have started to swell up every evening.

Anyway I am joining the gym today and I have loaded a calorie checker into my itouch so I have all the tools I just need to remember how much I want this and do my best to lose enough weight in the next 5 weeks to convince the surgeon to band me.

I am so scared they will say no. But I am also scared I will get banded and fail. Maybe I just need to stop thinking about it too much and get on with my life?

Hopefully my next blog will be a bit more positive, sorry.

Right, off to the gym :smile:

Hi, I do not want to sound rude. It has been hard for many to loose the weight and in my Group Psychic Class 3 people had their surgery date taken away because they did not loose the weight or meet the requirements for LB surgery. If you want to see upset.... OMG tears and sobs, it was terrible for these grown men and women to face. Even more sad for me and others to watch and hear about it. If they feel you are not ready or at least have tried to loose at my hospital they give the date to someone else who is ready. FYI How bad do you really want this and are YOU willing to create your own destiny starting today? I wish you all the best and I hope you find the wagon and jump on. imaluckydog

Here there again. Thanks for the great message. Okay so the first thing you have to know is WHY you have to loose weight. Every doctor is different. Mostly you need to shrink your liver so that they can lift it out of the way and get to your stomach to do the job right. That is the reason that most people have a preop diet. My pre-op was no bread, potatoes, rice or pasta. If I got hungry I was to drink a protein shake. That got the carbs out of my system (which took the cravings with it) not to mention I lost 14 lbs the 2- 2 1/2 week before my surgery.

It is okay to be scared. I would really worry about you if you weren't because I would be afraid that you thought that just having the band was going to fix your probelm. It won't. You can get this band and gain weight, but YOU know that you are ready to work hard. That is what brought you to this decision. Be very open with your surgeon. Mine didn't expect any weight loss before he scheduled surgery...but I had to lose some during pre-op for the liver "issue". He said he had one patient that he started on and couldn't get around the liver and had to close up without the band. He went out and talked to her mom about her diet. Asked if she had given up what she was supposed to. She said that her daughter was eating french fries every day. Well, I guess that if she couldn't follow the rules for 10 days then she wasn't ready for the band. I was so scared that I went out with friends a few days before my surgery and without thinking at a mozerella stick. I was so stressed out that the breading on the outside had screwed up my chances! I guess I was scared straight.

I'll be honest I had "Last Supper Syndrome" up until the day I started my pre-op. I gain 10 lbs from August when I decided to get the surgery "no matter what" and October when I started my pre-op because I was so afraid I could never eat some of the foods ever again. That is normal. Completely counter productive and some people are better at not doing that than others, but not me.

Use you calorie counter and get the bad carbs out of your system. Start with the gym a few days a week to get comfortable there. Honestly a high protein/low carb diet will take the pounds off. And talk to your surgeon. Mine was very understanding! Hang in there. You haven't "ruined" anything.

Hey,

I'm glad to hear your comments. I feel the same way. This is a big life decision and there should be some questioning moments. I see the Dr. in 2 weeks and should be approved by then. Then I just have to get motivated and go for it. Everyone I have talked to say they would do it again in a minute, so that does encouraged me. Good luck and stay strong. Let me know how it goes.

I started my preop diet on the 6th and cheated so many times, I have surgery on the 27th and I can tell you that as of today, i am only doing preop, I decided that if I am going to put body through this I have to meet it half way. Best of luck with you and hope all goes well. take care.