a bad day

Well I just need to share a bit! I was having a real struggle yesterday. It was the first day that it has happened since March 4th when I made the choice to go forward with my surgery! ( which was May 4th )

I had a really hard time staying on the right foods! for instants I ate 1/4 of a toasted cheese sandwich! yep bread! I know better than that. But before I realized what I did it was down! and then I make the little ones popcorn for there snack... and here I was popping it into my mouth! I could not believe it! then I started the head games of will you blew it! you can go ahead and continue. Last night my family went out to dinner to celebrate my parents 49 th wedding Anniversary! ( if you read past post you knew what we have through the past year, And know why it was so important!) Any way when I walked in ( late because my close were to big!!!!:omg: ) and I had to find something smaller to wear! :clap2: my family all gave me such compliments that I was embarrassed. Any way back to the bad day... I ordered a shrimp cocktail ummmmmm! and that was all I was going to eat.. well my niece who sat next to me ordered a chocolate chip mint mud pie!!! yep three small bites later with everyone watching... Did I let them down? I was so upset! the support they have giving me has been wonderful! I went for a long walk with my dear hubby along the water front and I told him how I was feeling, I was letting my self down plus him and my family... he said take each day as it comes!... don't look back! step forward! take yesterday and find out what you learned from it.

I soul searched and found that I am still dealing with old habits that are hard to break. I need to take owner ship of what I did and start a new!

I DID!!!! today I got up at 5 AM cleaned the house, did all the laundry,

weeded the gardens, watered the lawns, and went to the gym I worked out for two hrs. one on my own! one with the trainer. I feel so much better today! I guess yesterday was just a learning day!

Sorry if I went on and on..... just needed to share!

I posted this on gone for good thread but really needed it in my journal! Friday was a much better day! I am doing and feeling so much better about my self... We even went to dinner with Becky & Doug (friends) at a bar and I wore shorts!!!

I'm so glad to read that your day improved dramatically after having such a tough one the day before.....yeah - shorts! woo hoo! You go girl - you are doing so awesome and are a major inspiration! Thanks!

In the past would you have eaten three bites or ordered your own and ate the whole thing.