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Broke it

:biggrin::biggrin::thumbup:99.6kgs today.. Broke that barrier with 5 weeks to spare. Normally I would celebrate by pigging out, but not anymore!!!!!!!:drool: That's 33kg gone.... woo hoo. Not far to go.... I keep jumping up and down. Cheers Chooky
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The great devide

My world has become very obviously split into two neat compartments these past few days. Those who support me and those who don't:mad: The thing is I knew this was happening, but it is still a little baffling to find that you were only friends with some people because of your foodiness:confused: It's upsetting really because I actually thought the friendship was more than that but............... On a high note had the fill yesterday and the wiegh in , lost 5kg:thumbup: so am definatly on track for a tummy tuck for my birthday in April. Even better will be normal size for Christmas Day:biggrin::blushing::biggrin: Have a dress hanging in the cupboard and I will be wearing it and feeling great, except for the huge flap of skin sitting on my lap, just gunna chop it off. Tempted by a boob job too, but will probably settle for industrial strength bra's. Although Now I am beginning to think about it.... Imagine, nipples that were in the middle not under my arm pits, gee it's really beginning to be a possibility in my brain now!!! Cheers Chooky
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I want Toast

:biggrin:Wow.. I am dying for some toast but don't think I handle that whole someone is punching me in the throat feeling if it get's stuck. Before my fill (week ago) I was eating pretty normally (no toast) but rice cakes and tuna and salad stuff but now I can't even get that down and seem to be living on porridge and mashed veges with fish as long as it's pretty saucy. One thing I have discovered is all the different flavored tea's & coffee's this has been a bit of a life saver in the times I would normally eat crap now I have the nicer coffee and that feel's like a treat. Can't get to the gym with the kids but we washed the car and did a big tidy up outside and then went for a long walk on the beach front, it was blowing a gale and we had a play on the playgrounds and had fun so that will have to count as today's exercise. Husband could probably reccommend a different kind of workout but I just can't be bothered. Thats the thing, since I got banded I just am not interested in the bedroom aerobics, really couldn't careless,does anybody else feel that way? Six weeks is pushing the boundaries a bit. Anyway going to go find something to mash Cheers Chooky
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Photo op

:cool:How come whenever a fat photo or v.unflattering photoof me ispassed around my mother in law wants a copy??? well 70kg and a tummy tuck and all prettied up for a friends bday photos getting passed around, and let me tell you no copies required thankyou very much:angry: In fact only comment made was what a good photo of my husband it was and he is nearly filling the whole thing (thats a different issue entirely) ok dad in law didn't know it was me and thats ok cos I still look at it and don't connect, but come on would it kill her to at least say "nice watch" or "Hey i dont really think your good enough for the family and being fat was the only thing I could really use against you now your thin I'm screwed so...... stick your photo's????" or ????? Well ....:laugh::tt2::w00t: to you mother in law, go climb a tree, oh your grandaughter thinks I,m pretty and lots of fun and i am her mum so that what matter's... The best bit is and I know itspathetic I have framed a copy and put it on their dresser as a gift, lmao:lol: Cheers Chooky
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Down days

Been having a couple of down day's... Went to a real live support group yesterday , but it was over run by one person who wouldn't let anyone else talk or if they did she could top it or just took over and I feel a heap better on this site with you guy's than that so.... Been reading everybodies blogs and feel lots better cheers chooky:thumbup:
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Ab bra ca dab bra

So I booked the tummy tuck and thats all fine and am happy with the decision until i dream repeatedly that i am in a magicicans show and am in one of those box'es where they saw you in half:sad::thumbup: It's not like I will cancel it or anything but....... geez Cheers Chooky
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NATIONAL P>J DAY

I here by declare this day NATIONAL P>J DAY IN THIS HOUSE....... We all need a day at home to relax and just loll around a bit and only get out of the pjs when it's time to put clean ones on 2nite. Even the dogs are keeping thier jackets on and seem to be happy on thier beds soo...... Made the kids yummy french toast for brekky but coated it in cocnut and cornflakes and when it was cooked drizzled honey over it and strawberries on top, :party: before i would of eaten till i felt sick. Today only had my porridge and coffee. The kids sound like ww3 is starting so maybe the pj day is over before it has even really begun..... DAMM.:cursing: Cheers Chooky
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Mistake!!!!!!!!

Never declare pj day until it is over.... Cursed the day I think and we ended up gardening and making pencil holder's and goingto a strwberry farm . So next time I will wait till it's over before this fat lady sings.:cursing: Can the weeding count as 2days exercise? because really thats been it today, I did fill about 6 wheel barrows to the top, so maybe..... now I'm thinking food:drool: and what to have for tea, the others have got a chow meiny thingy but it's to dry for me, but I reckon I could just about get in the wok and roll around in it. I'll make a nice coffee to get over this (Ihope) and have some soup later. mmm:thumbdown: Right no more pj day's!!!!!!! Cheers everyone Chooky
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In shock

It's my Dad in shock not me.... The oldies came for lunch today and we were having homemade savory pasties and strawberry piklets with cream cheese and honey, all the healthy low fat versions but none of which I could eat or felt like eating today. Dad keeps saying but one wont hurt. He just has not grasped the concept of what I've done and why would anyone do that 2 themselves:confused: when I said I haven't eaten any bread or pastry or steak or... any of his daily stples I thought The shock nearly killed him:eek:. The father inlaw said, " Well when you lose the weight you can get taken off and properly again"????????????????????????? I have tried to explain but realisse that these 2 old dogs aren't up to learning any new tricks at this stage. I spose these 2 represent a growing number in my immediate circle who can't comprehend the sacrifices I am willing to make because now I can really see the bigger picture. & it's not my bum in a photo again. Between them they have decided Christmas day will not be worth living if they have to have it at my house because there will be no food, All this said as they chow down on the pasties and piklets while I have a shake.... These two are nuts:w00t: Still at least that means someone else can shop, clean and cook all day instead of me. Other than that have had a great day and their reactions have made me laugh:lol: ONLY ! WEEK OF HOLIDAYS 2GO Cheers Chooky
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Shake it baby!!

Back on the protien shakes again... as that fill sure is working hard this time and not letting much down at all, was so happy the yogurt went down:thumbup: But.... I think I'm going to start hanging around the butchers and maybe licking the windows because I really need to eat a giant juicy steak.:frown: My friend said to me at least you can't be a piggy anymore, all I could think was what kind of piggy???? Roast? Sweet & Sour? Sizzling????? AAGHHHHH:cursing: I swear if I see anyone wearing leather I will start to drool and shake. This hasn't happened before, my boy say's I must be turning into a vampire or something,, v.supportive that one let me tell you. Why is it when you decide to give it your all at the gym those skinny girls who bounce around yelling at everyone to "Push it Guys" or "The work is worth it people" and never cast a glance in your direction decide to be your best friend when your just about having a corony and your only thoughts are "the only thing you are gunna push is her head into her butt." But oh no she's going to chat away as if you met for drinks. This one stood in front of the treadmill so no matter how far i ran I couldn't get my hands around her neck:biggrin: Gosh should I have vanilla or choccy shake for dinner? they should make a Rare Sirloin with mushroom sauce and fries shake. That would be walking out the doors. Expresso tonight I think. m mmm Cheers Chooky
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The rest of my life

Athought came to me this morning:blink: When this generation end up in retirement homes will the population mainly be covered in tattoo's , piercings and have some sort of WLS been done on them? By then maybe all the mushie food won't matter so much anymore but it just made me think what is the world comming too/ Which then made me think , now I'm turning into my mother, who by the way is turning into her mother a little more eachday.:blushing: So I wonder if I will end up a skinny old lady with a belly button ring and a couple of tattoo's and a lapband living out my day's in whisering pines home or some such, eating mush and disgracing the grandkids. HOPEFULLY:thumbup: But at least I will be skinny!!!! The day is still young here, so who know's what it will bring, hopefully a few laughs and definatly a few more coffee's and a walk with the dog's and kids. Hope everyone has a great day Cheers Chooky:w00t:
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Well

Comming to the end of my wieght loss with the band I am beginnig to realise just how all consumming my food issue's were. They just filled the days and nights with little or no room left over for anything else, this is where the big now problem is... There is this huge void in my life, if anybody had told me at hte beginning that I would feel this way I would of laughed and said no way, but after a life time of having this constant wheel running in my head for it to be gone has actually left me depressed and I need to fill it some other way, but with what. Sadly I come to realise that I have no real interests, the main one was food, then diets then food, then lapband, but at the end of the journey, I have found I have the blah's big time, cos now I should be getting on with just living but I don't think I actually know how to do that after a life time of living for food. Pathetic but it is as if a friend has died or something, and it's no good trying to explain this to people cos they think your nuts Cheers Chooky
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Another day another ?????

Happy now cause I managed to get into the chatroom and have a laugh with everyone, it's nice at the end of the day to do that. Still school holidays and they are beginning to turn a little ferral here and need to get back to the class rooms. I think we are just running out of stuff to do and we are all getting sick of the sight of eachother at the moment. It's pouring down so they have gone off to make a tent in number 1s bedroom, i fear for the linen cupboard. ( OMG that mean's I will have to refer to my girl as number 2)( not good).:thumbup: I seem to have lost interest in food. Who would believe that!!!!:thumbup: I think it's like.... I can't have lots of toast and butter and honey for breakkie so why bother at all...:blushing: this is just another phase I hope and it will pass as the others have. Must be just a bit blah today, must of stayed up 2 late in chatroom:lol: Cheers Chooky
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5 Weeks

Five week's already post, It's gone v.quick, considering I was counting down the day's till I went ahead with everything. All the biuld up to surgery and now I've had my first fill which resulted in almost chucking on the nurse:eek: and comming home to drag the blender back out for soup, soup, soup. For some reason and this is being v.honest I thought the weight loss would of been a bit quicker, so far 10kg and a holiday in 12 weeks where swimming is a must , no hiding allowed. Feel calmer about that though as I know I'm not just rushing this for the bather's it's forever, but I will still be huge and I can't where a sign saying "But I have lost weight":redface: The food thing is ok, although today I really wanted bread, a great big slice, toasted with butter and nutella and a diet coke..... That's another thing no d.coke for 5 week's now, this comming from someone who could easily drink a carton a day and never left the house without one no matter how quick the trip was. I can devide my little world into two groups now, those who think you weight loss cheater and those who think I'm never hungry, physically no I guess I'm not, but mentally.... where's the toaster:tongue: Freindships are changing and that's why I find myself here tapping away to the world I guess. A couple of friends have been on all the same mad diets and binges with me, now I have had this lap thing put in and zap I no longer have any issues to contend with and realise they are not going to accept this. Other's are dying to take me to the skinny shop for a makeover (not allowed in before-2fat). I 'm beginning to realise that these 2 groups never really mixed with each other either. B is trying to be supportive and is doing his best I will give him that, but can't really grasp how anyone could do this to themselves, I mean give up steak, are you kidding me? I 'll admit I could really just about lick a cow right now but ..... Anyway it's not all a downer that just all came out from who know's where. I feel very detoxed and have no food hangover's to deal with every morning and retrainning myself in everyday things, like going to the beach for a ride and a play with the kids is that. Not how quick can I get them off the swings and into the fish and chip shop or the icecream place for waffle's and a take home pack not to share . The dog's are losing wieght too. Anyway I think I 'm going to have to lick a cow now or at least chase it around the paddock Cheers:tt2:
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July7 no more macca's

Swore this would never happen absolutley on a pair if size 12 jeans, I would not go to the golden arches in this new life for anything more than a coffee, but.... I had to do it and try a nugget because I was absolutly starving and well the rest is history as they say.:confused3: The exercise thing has picked up again, can't get to the gym because it's school holiday's, but am doing stuff around the place instead with the kid's and making up a little routine of my own that I'm doing every night now hidden away in the front room. Took the kids to one of those indoor gym play thing's today and thoought an adult's only one would be great, thought I would join in until I saw a staff member ( about 15 yr old and 15 kilo's) telling a dad off for being on the equipment, this was after I had convinced myself to do it and that I wouldn't get stuck and have the fire dept cutting me out of a tunnel and having to put the kid's in therapy for a few year's to get over the trauma of the afternoon. Still next time I should just post a lookout. I can't believe I feel so well everyday , no yucky bloating or just to yuck to live even a little bit and everything is just a massive task. I keep waiting for something to happen that will bring it all back and the :thumbup: feeling will be ther like an old friend saying "did ya miss me?" I'll have to go into the suitcase of clothes that I was wearing and packed away and find a pair of boardies for the holiday and then pray that in 12 weeks I can do them up and breathe in them. Cheers
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Job done

:smile2:Well its been ages since I blogged, but a fair bit has happened in that time. I past all the goals I set for myself and had the tummy tuck done on the 13 April so it was all before my one year bandaversary. How do I feel now????? Well thats the strange thing , instead of jumping up and down alday everyday I still find myself in that fat head space:confused:It takes a lot to see the changes we make and the fact that this is it forever is huge. Dont get me wrong its great and I now wiegh 72kg and have a great time at parties and go out because I have stuff to wear and the kids think this is great too. But....... I am still the same person on the inside and an awful lot of peopledont seem to get that at all, I am a lot less defensive and on edge and a lot more tolerant , but in sdaying that people are of me now that the fat has gone, so I wont take all the blame for that one. It must be the weather, it's cold and rainy here:thumbdown:But good luck to you all and to those at the beginning of the road keep walking down it because it is worth it. Cheers Chooky:smile2:
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To gym or not to gym

:thumbup::confused:I am over it today, I just can't face the gym again....Aday off won't hurt a little voice is saying but my butt is sasying ," well we know were that got us before don't we?":mad2: I am counting down to this holiday, I so want to just do nothing for a few days. Hence all the exercise because the holiday requires tons of suncream and bathers. The big difference this time is I am losing weight for ever this time not just for the trip and till I hit the buffet at breakfast, so why I put all this pressure on myself is crazy but I'm still doing it.:cursing: Maybe I should wear a sign around my neck when I get there saying "I used to be much fatter guy's give me a break." UGH Do I go or not:confused::thumbup::confused: CHeers Chooky
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