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A weight loss surgery blog by Bozzj on BariatricPal. 7 entries on surgery, recovery and progress.

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Read more about omg it's me that's getting fat, not her

omg it's me that's getting fat, not her

let me preface this blog by saying that up until 4 months ago i was ms. lapband usa. i swear, i was. i worked out 4-5x a week--like REALLY worked out, i ate right and i judged others when they fell off the lapband wagon. I mean i didn't really know it then...it wasn't conscience, but thinking back i think i thought i would NEVER do it again--you know, eat like whoa and pretend the weight was going on my abnormally thin friend instead of my a$$.   August 31st...4 months of denial...17lbs highe

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• Bozzj
• August 31, 200917 yr

Read more about my secret to this "diet"

my secret to this "diet"

So i've been banded for 3 months and i've lost 41.6lbs. I keep losing each week and i've decided to look back in my journal and see what's "making this work."   The day i opted to get the band (i'm self pay...even though my insurance would have covered it) i decided i needed to do something. I'm 29, 5'5 and 250lbs (was 292 the day i got banded). I have people all the time ask me what the "secret" is...and i just say that i'm ready. To someone who is in my shoes...you all know what that mean

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• Bozzj
• July 19, 200818 yr

Read more about Death by fat thighs

Death by fat thighs

Memorial day weekend...beautiful weather and i was feeling pretty good. I decided to take my FIRST walk outside in years. Normally i walk to the car and call it a day.   I was blasting Pussycat Dolls in my ipod and everything was going ok--i was hurting, but it was tolerable--until "the hill" and not just any hill but a freak hill that almost killed me. There was tons of skinny girls walking around so i couldn't roll down it crying..i had to act like it was no sweat.   I never realized

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• Bozzj
• May 27, 200818 yr

Read more about skinny bitch breaks my heart

skinny bitch breaks my heart

so just a week ago i was ranting about "a skinny bitch" without really thinking about what's happening here.   i'll explain.   tonight i went out for dinner with "that" girl...otherwise known as my best friend (one of two). She's thin..like size 4 thin...but growing up (when i was a size 8) she admitted to being jealous of me. why? no idea.   so we sit down at Houlihan's and things are just weird. i mean she's being "nice" but she's distant. then i'm being weird because she's being weir

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• Bozzj
• May 16, 200818 yr

Read more about skinny bitches i call friends

skinny bitches i call friends

so here i am, 3 weeks in- 19.7lbs down..feeling good, proud of myself, ready to DO this...   my two very best friends are skinny bitches. well let me rephrase, one can be a bitch lol and the other is so supportive i feel like i can talk like a big girl in front of her (you know what i mean..waking up in the am planning my dinner..thinking about snacks right after i ate...the stuff i've hide my entire life).   i'm going out to eat tonight for the very first time. i'm going somewhere healthy

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• Bozzj
• May 9, 200818 yr

Read more about yell if ya wanta...i know it's dumb

yell if ya wanta...i know it's dumb

it's weird. i've read posts n blogs that say they weigh themselves everyday and i always thought "relax"!!   well here i am weighing myself. first, my scale sucks and i have to get on a million times to ensure i got the right weight (that's another topic), but also i'm sorta pissed each day because it's been around the same weight (which is a 1lb down from last week...my official weigh day is friday). ok i know, i know..that's good..blah. but i'm freaking barely eating!!   today was a roug

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• Bozzj
• April 29, 200818 yr

Read more about Well here we go...

Well here we go...

I'm about to end clears and start mushies. So excited to get some food in and yet i'm worried at the same time that i won't make good choices. Time to take control and do this.   I've decided..and will try to remind myself when times are tough (like now--hunger) that i will not be fat anymore. I'm 28 and i can barely clean my freakin house. I worry about which restaurants I go to (if i can fit in the seats), i'm afraid to fly...i'm literally watching my life pass me by. I'm sick of it. I just

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• Bozzj
• April 24, 200818 yr