so, I didnt think I was and I did..

I was 380 two months ago and now I am 349!!!!!!

I cant feel it, I cant see it..... so I guess I am one of those freaks. lol

I been having issues about my band being too tight and wanting it tighter and all freaked out....

and this has alleiviated some of that stress.

I WONT GET A FILL.. (secret was I was going to have one at the end of October and see what happened)

But, I aint getting an unfil either..

I went food shopping and the changes I made were, I bought some fish, some 7% lean burger for meatloaf, quiche (I know its high in fat but it has nutrients), diet lean cuisines of lasangue and such..

(THESE are for NIGHT TIme.... )

and I only bought one junky food and that was nacho chips and cheesey sauce but once my kids and I eat some tonight, it'll be gone.

I know this wont cure the cheetos and Cookies habit cuz I live right by a 7-11... But I am really gonna try.. AGAIN

I feel kinda ashamed.. posting here.. and I thought about it alot last night and cried alot and I feel like a fool.. and although I WONT get an unfill, I can at leaste try to do some of the other things I need to do...like eat more healthier food at night and not that crap.

thanks again for your support..

I am reposting this at that other place.

I gotta fix my ticker

also.. its so emotional.. I just cant beleive I weigh 349.. I cant stop crying over it... I mean I have yo yo dieted and been to that...

But this is slow steady (kinda) and its gone for good (ya know, more than yoyo dieting) and

This was my history

December... got my lapband date Feb.15th #415

(no couseling, no nothing..sure you can tell)

January to feb. 14th.....lost 4o pounds on a low carb diet (almost easy but hardest thing i ever did) cuz they told me I HAD TO. #374

Feb. .... banded... only 2-3 weeks restriction till I ate normally

April... got a 1.1 fill........it made NO difference in restriciton #375

June.... got a 2.4 fill.....had a 9 hour PB on pills, and vomited my own saliva for 30 more hours until Ortiz forced me to the ER and they took it out. (all)

Aug...got a 1.6 fill... Knew it was tight.. for 2-3 weeks ALMOST went for an unfil INSTEAD I adapeted to NOT eating (JUST fine) #380

Oct. 7th... weighed at my doctors #349!!!

so thats where I am now.. the fill is tight.. and I NEED IT THAT WAY!

I am not starving.. I am not malnurashed, And I DO NOT MISTREAT MY BAND!

I dont pb, or choke or get golf balls and I STOP as soon as I get a tad bit of weird feeling in the chest..

ok.. so

Thanks for listning

I wanna come here more and support you guys but I live in a camper now due to a huge loss.... and its at a kitchen table and I am disabled and one to two hours at the table is all I can handle.. (I used to be at a easy chair at a desk)

loves

Nykee..that is fantastic news! I am so happy for you. Way to go girl on the wieght loss..

I am not starving.. I am not malnurashed, And I DO NOT MISTREAT MY BAND!

I dont pb, or choke or get golf balls and I STOP as soon as I get a tad bit of weird feeling in the chest..

If all this is happening then I say you are doing OK with your band, just try and stray from the junk which you seem determined to do...One day at a time Nykee is all you can do!

Congratulations

If what you are doing is working for you, that's great. I'm happy for your loss... and how often do you hear THAT statement?

Be Well.

:]

nykee. so glad to hear the pounds are coming off. you go girl / sandie

Nyk, slow and steady is a great way to lose weight. Thirty one pounds isn't anything to snuff off! That's over three huge sacks of potatos. Good job!

Its also not unusual for that much not to make a huge difference on an overweight person either. Over the past few years I've regularly lost 10kg (a bit over 20lb) and nobody ever notices - and all I can notice is that my clothes arent biting quite so much in the middle. And I'm only 80-90lb overweight!

But soon you will really begin to see it too.

Congrats on the weight loss!!!! That's an incredible accomplishment and you should be proud!! Thanks for sharing such great news with us!!

I am also glad to see that you are starting to listen to some the wonderful advice that has been give to you on your other thread. I know you realize that everyone is well intentioned and very worried about you. They all care or they just wouldn't bother.

I also realize that you must be going through an enourmous amount of stress if you have had to move into a camper to live, and just when the weather is starting to get cold, if it isn't already cold there. I wouldn't really know, I'm in not so sunny Florida, it's raining but hot.

As another person who is someone who always puts others needs ahead of her own, remember the best gift you can give those your love is being around as long as possible and as healthy as possible. I know you heard that before, but it's true. The world would be a much sadder place without people like you and all of us here at LBT in it.

All of us have our emotional issues where weight loss is concerned, I know I sure do. I wish you well on resolving those issues and hope you can find peace in your life, you deserve it.

Keep up the good work on losing weight, remember, we are all routing for you.

You are in my thoughts and prayers. Good luck to you on all that you want.

Cindy

Thanks guys!

Thanks chicigirl!~

I love my new ticker!

And I have a new goal..

Once I am at 335# I will be where I had my daughter at, 14 yrs ago!!