OK...here goes nothing. I haven't posted in quite a while because I have been dealing with some real shit at home. A month ago I found out that my husband of almost 10 years has been having an affair for the last year and a half. :mad:That's right...while I was losing weight and looking great, that pig went out seeking an affair and here I was scared of how I would act after I started to get attention from others when I started to look nice. I am hurt:crying:, angry:mad2:, sad :cry_smile:, devastated:cursing:, sick and every other emotion (other than happy). I'm now on Xanax for my anxiety and I am completely obsessed with this crap. How can someone go out seeking an affair when they have a wife and two beautiful children? Do people care anymore? Do vows mean anything? What the hell is wrong with people? Of course now all of a sudden he wants the marriage to work. Well damn...you should have thought about that before porking the skank!!!! I want to freaken scream. I want to hurt them both. How the hell do people get on after things like this happen to them? Is it possible? We are in counseling, but should I even bother? Will he do it again? What about my kids? Damn...I need some serious help. This really sucks. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of the chest pains and the anxiety. I want a fairy tale ended but unfortunately my marriage will NEVER be the same. I can never look at him the same way again. Do I give up and start my life over with my boys? Can someone wake me up from this horribe nightmare????? Why me? In the last year I have gone from a size 22/24 to a size 10/12 and I have lost 106 pounds. I thought that my husband was proud of me and thought that I was looking good...guess not, huh? Joke's on me!!!

My 2010 started off with a bang.

*elbows Tina and giggles*

LMAO...Plain, you are too funny.

So...today is the "ex's" 30th day to file his answer...the anticipation is killing me...nothing yet...could be interesting. I'm waiting for either no answer filed or some sort of bombshell to go off...I'm hoping for no answer.

Keep your fingers crossed for me that this turns out in my favor.

Hey hey hey everyone...so...in my earlier post, I stayed away from telling everyone that I have put on a few pounds, obviously because I'm not proud of it. So...I have an appointment at 9:30 this morning to get a fill. I'm nervous about going because I haven't had a fill since August 2008. I don't think that he's gonna be mad at me...I haven't gained that much. I'm also a little excited because I haven't seen him since my plastic surgery. I'm really curious to see what he's going to say to me. Wish me luck everyone.

Hey hey hey everyone...so...in my earlier post, I stayed away from telling everyone that I have put on a few pounds, obviously because I'm not proud of it. So...I have an appointment at 9:30 this morning to get a fill. I'm nervous about going because I haven't had a fill since August 2008. I don't think that he's gonna be mad at me...I haven't gained that much. I'm also a little excited because I haven't seen him since my plastic surgery. I'm really curious to see what he's going to say to me. Wish me luck everyone.

Good luck on the fill and I just KNOW he is going to tell you how fabulous you look!

Hey Tina,

Glad to hear that everything is going so well for you. I've put on a few pounds myself. I was doing so well and running and then had to have foot surgery. Long story short, I have a recurring problem in my feet and can't run. Between the holidays, lack of exericse, and a band that has become increasingly fickle. I'm currently up 6 pounds.

I'm going this Friday to have some Fluid taken out of my band. I'm too tight and I think I've developed a sweriously bad habit of eating slider foods.

Here's to a fresh start for both of us!

Hey there everyone...I hope that you are all doing well. Alright...I need your help...I need to be hit with a 2x4...I have picked up some pounds and I'm sooooooo mad at myself. :ohmy::cursing::ohmy::cursing::ohmy:

I got a fill two weeks ago and I have dropped 8 of the pounds but I still am having a problem with what I "want" to eat...this truly sucks. I was doing so well and I know that I haven't gone overboard but damn...I'm really coming down on myself because this is depressing. I am going on a cruise to the Bahamas in one month from today and I want to drop 20 pounds...I know that is a lot for a month but geez...I need your encouragement. I bought two new bikinis yesterday for my trip and there is NO way that I will put them on my body unless I drop this weight. What the heck is my problem? :thumbup:

On another note...I go to court on Monday for my scheduling conference for my divorce. The ex has been out of my house for over a year so my divorce should be final real soon and I'm getting excited about that. My "friend" and I are doing wonderfully and my youngest son turned 7 next week...life has been SUPER busy with the kids and their schoolwork and extra activities...I need to make the time to exercise and I need to stay away from the junk food.

Well...enough rambling. I hope you are all doing well and I'm just waiting for all of you to hit me and get me back on track.

Thanks, guys.

Hey there everyone...I hope that you are all doing well. Alright...I need your help...I need to be hit with a 2x4...I have picked up some pounds and I'm sooooooo mad at myself. :laugh::cursing::w00t::cursing::eek:

I got a fill two weeks ago and I have dropped 8 of the pounds but I still am having a problem with what I "want" to eat...this truly sucks. I was doing so well and I know that I haven't gone overboard but damn...I'm really coming down on myself because this is depressing. I am going on a cruise to the Bahamas in one month from today and I want to drop 20 pounds...I know that is a lot for a month but geez...I need your encouragement. I bought two new bikinis yesterday for my trip and there is NO way that I will put them on my body unless I drop this weight. What the heck is my problem? :blushing:

On another note...I go to court on Monday for my scheduling conference for my divorce. The ex has been out of my house for over a year so my divorce should be final real soon and I'm getting excited about that. My "friend" and I are doing wonderfully and my youngest son turned 7 next week...life has been SUPER busy with the kids and their schoolwork and extra activities...I need to make the time to exercise and I need to stay away from the junk food.

Well...enough rambling. I hope you are all doing well and I'm just waiting for all of you to hit me and get me back on track.

Thanks, guys.

Maybe do a 5 day pouch test just to really kick start a super healthy diet. Just from doing the pouch test a few months ago i lost 3kg in 5 days ( guess I was eating that bad) it really helped me change my eating habits for some time and I lost much more after the test.

Sorry you are going through all this stress with this nutty woman stalking you.

I am wondering if you could just lay low on the internet until this passes?

I would suggest getting a new e-mail address and only conversing with people you know and trust.

I am puzzled that these terrible things happen, teen suicide, etc.

This might seem like a dumb question, but if these terrible things are happening (don't mean you in particular), why don't they stay off the internet?

I don't consider it caving in, but rather getting out of the range of fire with these crazy people.

I would just stick with the old fashioned way of using the telephone and talking to people directly to get away from these nuts.

Tina,

Is this your first cruise? We went on a cruise last month and it my first. I gained 6 pounds! DH and DS both gained 9! It's food and drink all day every day, especially the drinks....egads!

I loved every minute of it, but I think I would try to starve myself next time before going. Because I had recently gained weight, I had gone from 6's to 8's and the 8's were super tight. I knew if I gained a single pound on the cruise, I wouldn't be able to wear my own clothes, so I bought 10's to take with me. It kind of hurt to buy them, but I was so glad I did.

So far I've lost 3.5 of that weight back off, but like you, I'm really struggling with my bad eating habits. I knew maintenance would be a challenge, but I really need to get back to following my band rules.

What cruise line are you sailing with?

Well hello, hello, hello to my LB buddies. I am back from my cruise and back at work :thumbup: The cruise was absolutely AWESOME...I loved every single minute of it...ate like a cow and drank like a fish...surprisingly I didn't gain 1 single ounce. I'm not sure how that happened but I'm not going to argue about it.

So...here's the latest on me...my divorce hearing is May 26 at 9:30 am...but who's counting :ohmy:. The ex is a complete loser and I can't wait to get this divorce finalized.

On a personal note, life is great...my bf's daugher celebrates her 16th birthday tomorrow and I'm very excited for her. My kids are doing wonderful in school (both made the honor roll again) and my bf's son is struggling with anger issues because of his wonderful mother but we're all helping him deal with things.

On a lapband note...I got a fill about 6 weeks ago...it was super tight and had to go back the next day to get some taken out...since that time I have been dealing with a bit of reflux...I have a prescription for it but sometimes it gets pretty bad. The last night of the cruise I was up all night throwing up because of reflux...I was eating too late and I knew better so I suffered the consequences. However, since I have been back I have not had one problem so I'm feeling pretty good about it. I would like to get off about 15-20 pounds but I'm not going to kill myself doing so. I don't think I'll have too much of a problem since the temperature outside will be getting better, I can jump right back into my exercising.

I hope that all of my buddies are doing well...we don't chat like we used to and I miss that .

Well...take care everyone...just thought I would give you a little update (if anyone was interested...lol)

Hey guys...here are a few pics from the cruise...

Tina,

You look great. Sounds like you had a lot of fun on your cruise. I am happy to hear that things are still good for you and your BF. Yay on the boys and the honor roll. Good luck with the anger issues the BFs son is having.

Do you FB? If you do look me up and friend me. I miss our talks also. I don't come to LBT to often. I check in but don't comment often.

Take care Tina.

Hi Tina!!

What great pics! Thanks for sharing. You look happy. :ohmy:

Congrats to the boys! How exciting for BF's DD! So sorry BF's DS is having such a hard time. Poor little guy! He is so lucky to have all of you.

Take care and keep the updates coming when you can.

Hugs!

Hello to my LBT peeps. So...I'm an Aunt for the first time. My little nephew was born on May 4, 2010 at 8:17 pm. He weighed 7 lbs. 12.7 oz. and 21 1/2 inches long...he's just perfect. I was sooo blessed to witness his birth. It was the most amazing thing ever. I had 2 c-sections so this was incredibly special for me.

Things with the BF are getting a little weird...he's very jealous (not scarey jealous) and I'm not used to it. He fears that someone will take me from him and that after my divorce is final I'm not going to want to be "tied down" and I'll want to go wild. It causes a little undo stress but I'm dealing with it because he truly is an incredible guy. I try to reassure him that I'm not going anywhere and I have no interest in someone else...who would ever have thought that someone would be jealous because of little old me????

Hey Gone 4 Ever...yes, I do FB...send me a PM and give me your name so I can friend you...that would be great...in fact, if anyone on here wants to friend me on FB, send me a PM.

Well guys...I would love to hear how you all are doing...the thread had died down...let's get this party started back up...lol

I know what I want to say and I hope this comes out the right way. I mean you no hurt with my words. First let me say that I understand your pain. I too had a husband who cheated on us and when I say us, I mean me and my two boys. The boys were very young when my marriage ended. My oldest was only 4 years old and my youngest was 4 months. I raised them all alone, did not date and consentrated on raising them and giving them what they deserved. I put Me on the back burner. So I do feel your pain. However, and I know you probably have heard this a million times, but "this too shall pass" You will eventually heal from this and if you and he do what is right for your children they to will do just fine. Now for the hard part and this is where I hope I say it just right. From what I hear in your message is that you went through your journey to lose weight for the wrong reasons. First, I feel that you should have done it for you and your health. Second, is where your husband and children would benefit from the new more healthy you. Also, if you and he do the counseling thing and you choose to make a go of it, I wish you all the best. I do beleive that a person can change if they "want" to. So its not impossible for him to learn from his mistake and to be the man, husband and father you need him to be. The hardest thing for you will be forgiveness. I hear you when you say that even if you do decide to stay together, the marriage will never be the same. I think thats the truth. It can however be managed. Please dont do the "getting back together" thing for the children. They will pick up on that is a heartbeat and it wont be pretty. I hope that you know that I wish you all the best and encourage you to keep up with your journey to be more healthy. I really hope that I havent hurt you further. That wasnt my intention. God bless you in whatever decision you make.