Feeling pretty weepy today. Finally forced PCP to do some more definitive tests for menopause having had missed and disappeared periods put down since late 30’s to weight and stress. Conclusion is yes I’m in menopause and likely have been since age 40. Explains so much. Very sad. Stopped my career just about dead as developed flop sweats when presenting, skin crumbled, hair became straw, weight gain ramped, anxiety and depression deepened, sleep was pretty constantly broken and everyone dismissed symptoms as cause.

Beginning to mourn the lost opportunities. Things turned down as I lost all confidence, felt it was impossible to solve and was all my fault.[emoji22]

Edit: Had my cry and hug from OH. I am 100% better place to deal now having had surgery and made lifestyle changes. I wish I had done it 10 years ago, but probably wouldn’t’ have had qualifying BMI and would probably have spent money I didn’t have on a band because sleeve wasn’t about so much and bypass would have felt like a step too far.

Am seeing brightness in the fact that I might get to know a baseline ‘me’ for the first time in many years and have a referral to a top specialist to explore ways to safeguard cardio and other health moving forward.

I am glad to to hear that you are doing better. What you shared will help many who are going through the same things. I am 49 years old and so far the only thing I am experiencing is late periods.

Stay positive and I wish you many bright days ahead and a successful future.

Hang in there and good luck with your surgery.

I am glad to to hear that you are doing better. What you shared will help many who are going through the same things. I am 49 years old and so far the only thing I am experiencing is late periods.
Stay positive and I wish you many bright days ahead and a successful future.

Thank you mrs. I am tipping over into angry now as I see the skew immediately in how my concerns are being treated...why expend resources on fixing a body now destined to crumble until I die? Conversely, professionally, I could be at the top of my game and may choose to be when I have gone further in my journey.

Knowing root causes hugely helps, but could have done without two lots of self image reinvention running in parallel.


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Aaand...plot twist! My period started yesterday. Not had my appointment with the menopause specialist yet, but my thinking is either:

A) This is a delayed version of the fat cells letting oestrogen lose thing and may be just the one.

B ) This is the last last gasp of my messed up 6 year peri-menopausal story or

C) It really all just was cos I was fat, and now I’m less fat and taking all the right Vitamins I’ve picked back up where I left off in my late 30s for another year or two.

Maybe just a coincidence, but I also had the biggest loss of recent weeks last week - 3.5lbs.

Hmmm...

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