So the past few months I've been absolutely confident that I'm doing the right thing, knowing full well it will change my life in so many ways.

But as I wake up today, 24 hours before surgery all I can think of is the difficult moments ahead - not necessarily in the short term (next month) but in the long term.

Yesterday I was at a wedding. It was so difficult to keep saying "no" to all the food I was offered, or that others were eating around me. I'm not a big drinker at all but I so badly wanted so badly to have a beer - just one- at a good brewery close to the wedding venue. But I refrained.

Second thoughts are spiraling around in my head but yet I know what I'm doing is absolutely the right thing for me to do.

I've read so many other stories with very similar tones so I realize that what I am experiencing is completely normal.

So I'm moving forward, somewhat tentative but yet confident. Looking forward to the new me.

The old me is 53 years young, HW 269 with a BMI of 41, CW 249, hypertension, diabetes type II, sleep apnea, high cholesterol. Looking forward to a healthier life.

Is this a cakewalk? No..... but it will be the best decision you've ever made. Hopefully you will breeze through it and this moment of doubt will be just a memory. It will change your life, for the better!

Congratulations on staying strong at the wedding and best of luck and good healing for the surgery

Kate

The very best of luck with a fast recovery

I feel exactly the same way!!

You have my support!!!

Congrats on your choices and your great attitude! You have already made the toughest decision and tomorrow you will be on your way. No, it isn't always easy but once you see those pounds coming off you will want more. Success it the greatest reward! Good luck and keep posting your progress!!