I really thought i wanted this but the closer i get to surgery date ( Aug 4th) the more im questioning if this is safe for me. I saw my psych doc yesterday and he changed my meds a little bit to prepare for my smaller stomach. He gave me a mood stabilizer which is also an anti seizure med because i guess there is a possibility of seisures w my meds if my electrolytes are off! One more thing to worry about! I keep telling myself to just do the best that i can do and leave the rest to God but im still really unsure if this is the right thung. Does God want me to rearrange my stomach? I know i sound like a huge baby but im hoping i can bear my soul with you guys without judgement. I really thought i wanted this but now....?

I was right where you are a month ago. I would have these gigantic swings from wildly excited to scared to death and second guessing the entire thing. The very best thing that happened is the surgery date came. I was exhausted from thinking about it for so long.

IT IS SCARY. It's a life-long decision. It's FOREVER. However, it's all about YOU. It's for your health, your life, your well-being. The surgery is scary - being put under, having everything re-routed and then recovery - but what are you truly scared of?? I was scared of the unknown...how was I going to feel? How much pain would there be? How scary is that first sip of Water? It was all unknown and very very scary.

Know what? It was so much easier/better than I ever imagined it would be!!!! You will be in good hands. This is a good decision. If you can, pray for peace of mind and calm thoughts. I promise, it's going to be OK.

Thank you Amylou. That made me cry( in a good way). I needed some encouragement! - Jo

Oh my goodness, I have finally found someone that said everything I am feeling. I'm so glad to know I'm not alone in feeling this way. My surgery is not until Sept and I can have an axiety attack just thinking about it. Thanks for sharing the way you are feeling, it validates we ARE normal.

I think it is absolutely normal to have these fears. I was fully expecting to have them too, and perhaps having to wait a year has something to do with it, but for whatever reason I've never felt more sure of anything in my life.

And that surety has translated into a sort of zen like calm that I hope will still be with me when I go through those OR doors on the 29th. Could be I'll be overcome with jitters too at that last pivotal moment. Who knows? Yet I'm positive of one thing - it would take a full fledged catastrophe to change my mind at this point.

Don't feel bad for having these doubts. It's in our genetic make up to approach anything with even the slightest possibility of doing us harm, with trepidation. You can't even get through the darn paperwork without tripping over the words "possible complications" a million or so times. So pay attention to your gut and heart and only do what's right for you with no regrets either way.

Good luck!

Edited July 7, 201511 yr by The Candidate

I am having the same feelings. My RNY is scheduled for tomorrow. I know logically this is the best thing I can do but the fear keeps creeping in. I will pray for your peace of mind.

Even as they were wheeling me back to the OR I was wondering what the hell I was thinking allowing someone to chop out my stomach. I too questioned if it was something God would want me to do and if I was being weak. But now it's over and I feel great. Wish I had done it when I was 18 instead of living 15 fat years I didn't have to. I love my sleeve. I'm 4 months post op and down 80+pounds. It's normal to be scared. It's a huge decision. But it's one I will never regret.

I'm having Gastric sleeve next Monday 7/13. I am so thankful I found this site. It has been so informative and supportive. As time is closer I'm questioning my resolve to have the surgery. For me it's not only weight loss but resolution of Diabetes and Hypertension. I am thankful that I can come to this site and see how others manage all the before and afters of such a major decision.

@@The Candidate. Thanks for your encouraging words. Good luck on your upcoming surgery. Let me know how it goes❤️

@@nervous nana. At least i know im not the only one feeling this way

@weighting2befree- congrats on your surgery and weight loss. Its good for me to hear about people like you who are doing so well. Thanks!❤️

@Pattane- i know. Im so glad to have all your input. Let us know how the surgery goes❤️

I feel the same way! I think a lot has to do with how many posts I see in different places on people have complications or are really regretful of doing it. Each time I read one It makes me second guess my decision. I think I need to stop reading these type of posts lol.

Scared?

Naw.

I'm petrified.

But not over the bypass surgery. That's the one thing that doesn't scare me. I've got a great surgeon and his staff are excellent.

What scares the crap out of me is how close I came to leaving this world way before my time. Heart problems were coming. Many other surgeries were coming, too....knee & hip replacements....sooner than later.

Petrified that I'd not be here to become a grandfather one day.

Nope....the bypass is going to be a smooth process. It's how close I came to losing so much that occupies my nightmares.

Prayers are what led me to this procedure. Prayers helped guide me to my surgeon. I know that this bypass is a tool that is being provided to help.

I'm sure I'll have the jitters just prior to going under the anesthesia. That's normal stuff. Had the same jitters with 2 hernia surgeries and an ankle repair over the past few years.

No biggie....you wake up all fixed and just have to recover.

The good thing is that we'll not be recovering from some type of injury but the planned bypass work.

This bypass is a good surgery that's been done since the 50's.

We'll all be up walking the day after and every day for the rest of our longer lives.

No fears over the surgery and the changes that come with it. The fears are only if I'd been stubborn and stayed on the course I was on.

Life with morbid obesity isn't a long one.

Taking the actions we all are taking will give us decades of high quality life that we'd not otherwise have.

Things are going to be great for us all.....and for out families, too.

Dub- ???????? love what you wrote.

My surgery is in less then a week and I could not be on more of an emotional Rollercoaster. I go from excited to scared to death. What if I don't like who I become? What if my friends or family no longer love me for me? I have always been accepted for who I am no matter what weight I was. What happens if I'm more sad after the surgery then before?