Tomorrow morning (October 10) I'm having my surgery at 7:45 a.m.

I am nervous and excited. Hope I can sleep tonight!

Yeah, I'm pretty sure I'm going to try again. I made the decision to do this calmly and rationally, and let panicked fears take over today. Next time I'll be prepared.

A lot of people have said that they felt scared and panicked before surgery but didn't regret it after it was done. One of my best friends had a bypass several years ago, and she said she was bawling and hyperventilating when it was time to go in. Also says it was the best thing she ever did.

I guess I didn't realize how totally normal it was to freak out while waiting for surgery at the hospital. If I reschedule (thinking about it over the weekend), I'll be sure to do it right next time!

I felt like backing out, but once they put versed in my IV I was a-ok lol...do this when it is right for you and take your biggest supporter!

I was so ready for this surgery - and had already had lap band surgery plus a revision, but this one felt more major (and it is) so I was freaked out too. I was holding steady until they wheeled me away from family towards the OR and then the tears started flowing. I didn't think about changing my mind, but I was so scared that I'd die in surgery and abandon my disabled husband.

Was so happy to wake up when it was over! And so very happy I went through with it.

I hope you come to the right decision for you.

Edited October 11, 201411 yr by thesuse2000

I am just 3 days post-op and I can honestly say that I was freaking out until the very last minute. This surgery is major, and it's scary. Even now I think: WHAT DID I DO? But then I remind myself of what this is going to do for my life. How I'll be so much healthier and happier.

Don't be too hard on yourself.

@@mnmlst Thank you so much for being so open and honesty. You candor is very much appreciated. You have brought up some very real concerns and feelings that are crucial for all of us to think about. I know that the closer I get to my date the mir anxious I am becoming. I'm glad to hear that most everyone freaks out to some extent. I'm going to talk this over with my husband so that we can talk it through and be as prepared as we can be for that moment. Keep us updated on your next steps.

I was thinking about you today. How are you doing? @@mnmlst

Thanks for thinking of me, @@crystalsleeve ! Physically I'm fine. No surgery, so I'm feeling fine on that front.

Emotionally a bit of a mess. But I'm trying to reschedule. Should be sometime next week, either Tuesday or Friday. Still waiting to hear from the scheduler with a firm date. I won't freak out and run this time, for sure. But now I'll be almost 4 weeks on the liquid diet, which it TOUGH. I really hope they can make it for Tuesday. Either way, it will be good to have a firm date settled to plan for.

Let us know how you are! Hope this next time goes smooth sailing.