Feel like im just ready to give up. Made the wrong choice

Why?

Eating chocolate. Drinking coffee. Stalled. Not eating protein. Not eating at all. Purging.

Ok. So take a deep breath. Start over. Remember why you started on this journey. It is about better health. Do you have support? The hospital I went to offers 2 support groups a month. There is overeaters anonymous. ..they have meetings on line. Start back at square 1. Journal what you eat when you eat and how you feel. Celebrate your successes. You are not alone. I still binge on chocolate and crave sugar when I pms. I drink caffine except when I want to sleep. Sometimes I take 1 bite of food and don't want to eat the rest of the day. Somedays I love my shakes somedays the make me want to puke. My taste buds have changed. The more open I am about the surgery the more people I meet who have had it.

I had same issue with protein shakes could not do one more!!! I ordered on Amazon twisted cherry protein powder and I mix it with sugar free orange packets from wal mart and it tastes like a astro pop from ice cream truck! One scoop powder is 23g protein! I basically drink my meals but it's easy to do now this way.

I confess I still use ungery vanilla powder in 1% chocolate milk. Get my chocolate fix and my shake. I do it in the am because I still hate breakfast.

I know I can do it im just scared of failure. Hoping it isnt too late. .

starting weight 298, current 183, goal 150

My surgeon defined failure as gaining the weight back. Which means I have to keep on track...food plan and so on. That being said I am human and sometimes I do stupid stuff then say won't do that again. Like eating ice cream then dumping. Don't do ice cream today. Didn't believe what others said...I just had to try it on my own.

It's never ever too late! This is a lifestyle not a diet. In a lifestyle, you're going to LIVE. You're going to eat too much fudge at Christmas time, you're going to reach for that pizza instead of grilled chicken sometimes, and you'll never be perfect. I know I'm not. Just make sure you're living as healthfully as possible every day so the day you DO cheat, you know it won't be a huge deal. The key is not to live your life "cheating". That's how we got to the surgery in the first place. I was always so jealous of this girl I went to high school with. She's always been naturally thin and GORGEOUS! I would see her out with her friends drinking beer and having yummy treats on FB and just hate her! Lol now that she and I are friends on My Fitness Pal, I see that not only does she work out almost every day, but she also eats healthfully 80% of the time, but DOES enjoy a treat here and there. I'm trying to model myself after her now. Just remember-- everything in moderation! You're going to be just fine!

Mostly what im worried about is the stalling. I wanna lose about 30 more pounds but I don't know how to say no to the foods that got me big. I weighed 298 almost a year ago (nov 7) and I now weigh 182.5. I just feel like im doing everything wrong and I feel big where other people see a smaller person..

starting weight 298, current 183, goal 150

I know I can do it im just scared of failure. Hoping it isnt too late. .

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You are down more than 100 lbs!!!! That's AMAZING!! You obviously have been doing a lot right :-) take a deep breath and promise yourself that when you wake up tomorrow, you will be back on track...and stick to it. Maybe try the liquid diet for a few days to kickstart you system in the right direction again. Losing 30 more pounds is nothing compared to what you've already accomplished. You are doing great girl. Don't give up now!!! It's not allowed

(Pre op) sw 341~cw 298~gw 140

You can come to far to let this defeat you. If you need chocolate try premier chocolate Protein drinks. 30 grams protein and no protein gagging taste. With the purging maybe you need to talk to a counselor. Hang in there.

HW 358 SW 344 CW 240 RNY 4/11/2013

You guys are all right. I just need to start believing in myself I guess. This has been a hard year tho.

starting weight 298, current 183, goal 150

The most concerning part of this to me is the purging...dangerous behavior my friend. I think we discussed this before and you may already be doing it, but I really recommend a therapist to work through your issues. Your weight loss us beyond fabulous, you've lost twice what I have in the same time frame. We all have stalls and doubts. We all cheat occasionally. That's all completely normal. Resorting to purging scares me for you. Please be careful.

HW 312, pre-op (RNY) 255, current weight 198

Eating chocolate. Drinking coffee. Stalled. Not eating Protein. Not eating at all. Purging.

I definitely missed this post. Purging is very bad. You definitely should get in touch with your surgeons office to get pointed in the right direction for help. Therapy is nothing to be ashamed of. You may actually enjoy it. Best of luck to you. Please get the help you need to reach your goal in a healthy way.

(Pre op) sw 341~cw 298~gw 140

I think everyone in our shoes can relate to having a sick relationship with food. I wonder if you can redefine success as having a healthy relationship with food and being healthy. I was bulimic for over fifteen years, in recovery for twenty. I am in therapy, and I probably will need support for life. What I've learned is that purging and other unhealthy food behaviors are not about food at all...that's just the symptom. My bulimia was about me not knowing how to deal with my feelings, good or bad. I came from a dysfunctional family who did not deal with feelings in a normal way, so I had to learn how to feel my feelings and not stuff them My therapist's concern with the surgery was that , while it us a great weight loss tool it also forces a restricted eating pattern, so I eat as normally as possible in the restricted parameters of my new lifestyle: regular meal times, scheduled snacks, food logging, etc. This makes me eat more or less like a " normal" person in an abnormal situation. But support us crucial....professional support. I urge you to contact your team so they can guide you to a good therapist and support system. You are worth it! We're here for you, but we're not professionals, and opinions are often times well intentioned, but misguided...after all, they're only opinions from lay people. Please look into getting help...we care, and we want the best for yiu.