I am not sure I can adequately explain how I'm totally feeling right now but I need to just talk it out. Most people would never know just how low my self esteem has been the last several years. I've been ashamed and embarrassed and its even led me to shy away from social events with my husband. He is a attractive fit military member and I always felt I was a poor reflection on him. In my social circle I was the funny girl everyone could count on to be the life of the party. I've just now started to feel shreds of confidence starting to come back. I've described myself for years as looking like I was shaped like humpy dumpty. Maybe I'm being vain but idk how that works still being a chunky girl..I got out of the shower and I saw everything wiggle so bad! From head to thigh. Lose skin all around idk if I could get taken off even if I lost more. I've got a nice chunk to lose still and idk what I was thinking..like the skin sag would miss me..or perhaps I'm young enough I'm gonna snap back. I see the face in the mirror and she looks so familiar but yet without the fat she's a stranger..where did these lines come from? I still have a big roll of fat on my belly and I could pretty much roll the skin under it. I'm ashamed I'm being so vain but I guess it's gonna be another adjustment. My husband was no help and my friend just said how that's what I wanted. Yeah it was and I still do. Just gotta get use to this I suppose.

Yes! Write goals down!!!

Compliments on the hair is good! He has to start somewhere be patient and it will seem over night you will drop and need to shop!!!!

I'm so waiting!!! I would love a good shopping day

Although I'm not there yet, this is a fear I have as well of all the hanging skin. I know I will have some, I've been fat my entire life, I'm in my 30's so it's not going to bounce back, it's been stretched for too long. I'm scared. But I think even though we see the hanging skin and stretch marks, we have to think of how much healthier we are becoming, how many more years we've added back into our lives. It is a start with complimenting you on your hair. Give it time, he will come around. You are a beautiful woman, now you need to start believing it. I've been thinking of going to a therapist to work these things out. Maybe it's something you could look into as well, if only to build up your confidence. You are an inspiration and I thank you for sharing your story. Write down your goals, baby steps ☺

Although I'm not there yet' date=' this is a fear I have as well of all the hanging skin. I know I will have some, I've been fat my entire life, I'm in my 30's so it's not going to bounce back, it's been stretched for too long. I'm scared. But I think even though we see the hanging skin and stretch marks, we have to think of how much healthier we are becoming, how many more years we've added back into our lives. It is a start with complimenting you on your hair. Give it time, he will come around. You are a beautiful woman, now you need to start believing it. I've been thinking of going to a therapist to work these things out. Maybe it's something you could look into as well, if only to build up your confidence. You are an inspiration and I thank you for sharing your story. Write down your goals, baby steps ☺[/quote']

Thank u. Your words mean alot to me. I ordered hip hop abs last night cause I need to try to get that fun and younger side to me. I'm pretty much thinking going back to therapy would be good for me I had been seeing someone before surgery but haven't went in a while. I got up earlier this morning to try to put makeup on. I have my Spanx under my scrubs and ready to face the day.

Double chin almost gone!

You look beautiful!

I hope you have great day and you wear that smile all day!

I woke up early did my hair and put on a lil make up too we got this girly! One day at a time....

Thank u. Your words mean alot to me. I ordered hip hop abs last night cause I need to try to get that fun and younger side to me. I'm pretty much thinking going back to therapy would be good for me I had been seeing someone before surgery but haven't went in a while. I got up earlier this morning to try to put makeup on. I have my Spanx under my scrubs and ready to face the day.

Double chin almost gone!

You look so pretty!

I woke up early did my hair and put on a lil make up too we got this girly! One day at a time....

Thank u! U look beautiful! Have a great Thursday! I wish I had your hair!!!

You look so pretty!

Thank u so much! That means alot!

You look FANTASTIC!! A little make up ,spanx, & you're smile is a recipe for a wonderful day!

You look FANTASTIC!! A little make up ' date='spanx, & you're smile is a recipe for a wonderful day![/quote']

Thank u.

Thank u. Your words mean alot to me. I ordered hip hop abs last night cause I need to try to get that fun and younger side to me. I'm pretty much thinking going back to therapy would be good for me I had been seeing someone before surgery but haven't went in a while. I got up earlier this morning to try to put makeup on. I have my Spanx under my scrubs and ready to face the day.

Double chin almost gone!

Whoooo hoooo! Get it girl! Gorgeous!! I hope you do go back to therapy, it will be a great step for you. Major changes coming so we need to get our heads to match our body changes! Hugs!!

I woke up early did my hair and put on a lil make up too we got this girly! One day at a time....

Beautiful! Baby steps, we'll get there!

Whoooo hoooo! Get it girl! Gorgeous!! I hope you do go back to therapy' date=' it will be a great step for you. Major changes coming so we need to get our heads to match our body changes! Hugs!![/quote']

Thank u!!! I'm so glad I have found such awesome people to walk this journey with me