My last doctor visit is on 1 Nov. On that day, reflecting six months of doctor visits and a 15 pound weight loss, my package will be forwarded to insurance for approval. Now that the reality is sinking in, I'm scared. After struggling my whole life, fighting, losing 50 pounds, gaining it back, losing 100 pounds, gaining 50 back, I realize that this is the final end to a lifetime of low self esteem, finding clothes that fit, being belittled and put down for my looks. Is it really happening and can I really do it? Will I really see the person on the outside that has been fighting to get out for 46 years? Shopping at Victoria Secret? No more plus sized clothing? Is it real? Can it be a reality for me?

I would appreciate any words of encouragement from those in the same situation.

Thanks! Christi

Christi! Hun it is a reality. We are all scared. We have blessed with the tool to make it happen. I too dream of not bring embarrassed by being the big girl in the room. We can do this. We are here for you. This is a great place to be for support!! Breathe and take it one day at a time.

Thank you Heather! Did you get approved yet?

Congratulations the month will fly by.

Thank you so much for the support, advice and encouragement.

You can do it.... there is no greater feeling that fitting into something that is sexy, pretty and you look good. It is all TOTALLY WORTH IT !!! Go for it !!! I have no regrets what so ever !!!

Thanks so much. I know that everyone has said they have zero regrets. I am so excited and nervous. Come on November!

You will go thru lots of emotions... good and bad but still its worth it !!! All your feelings are totaly normal and we all go thru it. As I have said in past posts, your "physical" affair with food is over its just dealing with the mental part of giving up something you love and replacing that focus with something else like exercise. So there are lots of emotions going on at first but it all goes away after you start adjusting to the new life style. It took me about 2 months after surgery to get the ol' emotions in check

You are so right. So much of it is a mental and emotional challenge. Thank you so much for the support. I will keep you posted on my approval, surgery date, etc. Thanks. Christi