Well, i started out needing to so a 3 month diet. Then my insurance through work changed, and i had to do a 6 month diet. Then I submitted everything required by my insurance and they came back and said I had to get pulmonary and cardiac clearance. This has caused a delay of at least another month. I jumped through the last hoop today. Or maybe I should say I slung myself, gasping and wheezing through this hoop. I did the stress echo and had to go on the treadmill. I only lasted a very few minutes. I was super short of breath and only was in the segment after the warmup. When they had me hold my breath to do the echo, I felt like I was going to die. It's just disgusting and pathetic that I'm so out of shape. The ARNP said, "Your exercise tolerance is less than stellar". Lol. That was diplomatic. It's embarrassing and I hate the fact that I've allowed myself to get like this. I wonder if my insurance is ever going to approve me. I wonder if I will ever feel like a normal human again. Embarrassment/humiliation/shame is just a constant companion and i hate it. just feel like a big fat loser. And not the kind I hope to be:).

Yes, it was interesting. I was on so much IV fluid that week that my weight was 20 lb higher then DOS. It took a couple weeks to return to ground zero weight. Anyways. Not meaning to hijack the thread Elaine. It is just something you want to keep on your radar for after surgery. I am super impressed by your viewpoints on this thread. It shows you are going to be of sound MIND for when the really hard stuff comes post op where your headspace is really messed with.

Off topic, but LauraVen, I love your thread on addiction. I wouldn't say it there bc there are too many posters and I'm a wimp, but the vast majority of the ones who say they aren't addicted are, in my opinion, full of s&!t.

Thanks to all. This day is ending better than it started:)

Hahaha.. Love it! I secret post to vent the truth. I agree.. They are in complete denial. I would like to know the success/failure rate of deniers.

This is one of my favorite threads ever!