Okay so this girlie here is freakinggg out!! I have not slept all night, i have a pedi scheduled as a pre surgery relaxation today and i don't even want to go any more. I am so fearful, afraid of dying, complications, pain after surgery, not being able to eat food i like again, this not working, stalls, weight gain, not having children. I know that in a few month i will look back at all this and laugh well i hope, but today anxiety is running at an all time high. Xantax any one??

Fearful... afraid of living...afraid of a recovery that lets you walk and play... Having Children!... Eating anything, but thoughtfully so...

Xanax might work, but this saying always has helped me: Since only the good die young, I expect to live forever! Join me, Jersey!

Fearful... afraid of living...afraid of a recovery that lets you walk and play... Having Children!... Eating anything' date=' but thoughtfully so...

Xanax might work, but this saying always has helped me: Since only the good die young, I expect to live forever! Join me, Jersey![/quote']

Thanks reading the last sentence made me chuckle I needed that.