Hello Everyone! Well, after years of yo-yoing, dieting, phentermine etc. and after jumping through the insurance hoops.... I finally have my surgery date. April 22, 2013!!! It doesn't quite yet feel real. Although I am scheduled, start my liquid diet monday and have a letter of approval from aetna, I still feel as though at any moment the doctors office is going to call and say they changed their mind. My starting weight is 330, I am 5'9 and pear shaped. I have this awesome husband and handsome two yesr old son and they are being cheated by me. I am not the wife and mother I want to be. I want to have more energy, I want to be able to get down on the floor with my little boy and not worry about my back locking up, and I want to let my husband show me affection without cringing because he is touching my fat. I just want the old me back. As the date approaches, O am so full of emotion. I am relieved, excited, scared to fail, overjoyed etc.I am all over the place. I am very glad I found this forum to vent without shame.. So thank you all

Congrats! My surgery is the 29th. I am currently doing my liquid diet and I am screaming on the inside! Not sure how to feel for the next 3 weeks but I try to think of a healthier me!

That's the same day my hubbs will have his. You have got this girl!

Thank you for the positive thinking! Cause I have none.

Hello Everyone! Well, after years of yo-yoing, dieting, phentermine etc. and after jumping through the insurance hoops.... I finally have my surgery date. April 22, 2013!!! It doesn't quite yet feel real. Although I am scheduled, start my liquid diet monday and have a letter of approval from aetna, I still feel as though at any moment the doctors office is going to call and say they changed their mind. My starting weight is 330, I am 5'9 and pear shaped. I have this awesome husband and handsome two yesr old son and they are being cheated by me. I am not the wife and mother I want to be. I want to have more energy, I want to be able to get down on the floor with my little boy and not worry about my back locking up, and I want to let my husband show me affection without cringing because he is touching my fat. I just want the old me back. As the date approaches, O am so full of emotion. I am relieved, excited, scared to fail, overjoyed etc.I am all over the place. I am very glad I found this forum to vent without shame.. So thank you all

Congratulations on getting your date and moving forward with this!

Thanks Ladies and Sparkle, sending positive thoughts your way, just think girl next year at this time we will be welcoming and encouraging the new sleevers and we will working ate new thinner bodies!

Thanks Courtneyjoy! I'm thankful that I have people who are going through the same process as I!

Congrats ladies!! Here's praying you have a flawless surgery and an excellent recovery!!

Thanks MrsG!

My surgery date is April 18th!! I'm having the same emotions as you are! I am in the middle of my liquid diet, and it has been a rollercoaster! We can do this!! Good luck with everything:)

Thanks Blueeyes, I start my my liquid diet monday. And you are we can do this! Can't wait to hear how your surgery goes, you ate so close!

* are, ugh even subconsciously I'm thinking of food lol!!!

I have surgery tomorrow and was on a one week liquid diet. The first couple of days are the hardest (day 2 & 3 for me were the worst). If you can get through that it will be easy. To make it the rest of the way! Just keep thinking about the light at the end!!! Congrats!!!

Hello Everyone! Well, after years of yo-yoing, dieting, phentermine etc. and after jumping through the insurance hoops.... I finally have my surgery date. April 22, 2013!!! It doesn't quite yet feel real. Although I am scheduled, start my liquid diet monday and have a letter of approval from aetna, I still feel as though at any moment the doctors office is going to call and say they changed their mind. My starting weight is 330, I am 5'9 and pear shaped. I have this awesome husband and handsome two yesr old son and they are being cheated by me. I am not the wife and mother I want to be. I want to have more energy, I want to be able to get down on the floor with my little boy and not worry about my back locking up, and I want to let my husband show me affection without cringing because he is touching my fat. I just want the old me back. As the date approaches, O am so full of emotion. I am relieved, excited, scared to fail, overjoyed etc.I am all over the place. I am very glad I found this forum to vent without shame.. So thank you all

You're full of emotions and they're all normal. Know this, you will never make a decision for YOU that is more exciting and fun, that this one. I have never looked back. Shopping is fun, sex is better, it is sooooo nice not to be the 'biggest girl in the room', I don't mind having my picture taken or going to a get together. Life is totally different. I'm not uncomfortable riding in the car, sitting in an airplane seat....or sitting on my husband's lap. I'm telling you, I woke up in recovery and was ready - I've loved every minute of it. I don't miss the amount of food I could eat, actually when I see what others can eat and know I did the same thing.....it makes me sick!!! I feel like I live/eat like a naturally thin person, finally I feel like I am in control, not food!!! Good luck and God bless you!!

Best wishes for your big day tomorrow!!