Did I get your attention???

Ok, curiosity... when I answer posts here, I am always coming from a perspective of a "food addict"

But many times I have people write back...

"But I don't have an addiction to food"

Which I always think to myself YEAH RIGHT!

Don't beat me up I'm being honest!!

What can I say I'm pessimistic, I also laugh when people say they don't eat TO MUCH so they don't understand how the are fat.. I AM FAT BECAUSE I EAT LIKE A PIG (alone mostly)

Today I thought about, "what if I'm wrong?"

I mean...I am me and I am addicted, how do I know how the next person is???

I'm curious as an addicted fat person how is it for those of you who are not addicted?

Oh and on a side note if I am wrong, then I'm also jealous because I would give anything not to have this problem (addiction)

From my post today on "wagon thread"

Obsessive thinking!

So I never tried my plain yogurt last night because I'm sick as a dog and watch out I'm a big cry baby when I'm sick... I pouted when my husband went to work in the ER this morning,

Why do they get his care, not me!

Anyway can't eat... BUT IT HAS NOT STOPPED ME FROM THINKING ABOUT FOOD!

I think about all day all night, if I wake up in the middle of the night I think about it, I think about it more than I've ever eaten it (thank god I'd be 1000lbs)

I torture myself thinking about it..

I need to think about why I think about it..

How many years of therapy and its still not figured out.

From my post today on "wagon thread"

Obsessive thinking!

So I never tried my plain yogurt last night because I'm sick as a dog and watch out I'm a big cry baby when I'm sick... I pouted when my husband went to work in the ER this morning,

Why do they get his care, not me!

Anyway can't eat... BUT IT HAS NOT STOPPED ME FROM THINKING ABOUT FOOD!

I think about all day all night, if I wake up in the middle of the night I think about it, I think about it more than I've ever eaten it (thank god I'd be 1000lbs)

I torture myself thinking about it..

I need to think about why I think about it..

How many years of therapy and its still not figured out.

Girl you need to get out more....just sayn'

(Sorry you're feeling bad too...that doesn't help)

Go to the gym, take a walk, put on some hip hop and hipity hop. Wash the cat, pet the car....do something other than letting your brain engage you in thoughts that you don't need to think about. Whenever I get this way, I go find something to do. Not necessarily alone if you get my meaning . But just go....gotta house diy project that you needed to get done, but have been too crap assed to do it, now's a good time. Engage your brain, don't let it engage you!!! You know you got this. MAN-UP!

Girl you need to get out more....just sayn'

(Sorry you're feeling bad too...that doesn't help)

Go to the gym' date=' take a walk, put on some hip hop and hipity hop. Wash the cat, pet the car....do something other than letting your brain engage you in thoughts that you don't need to think about. Whenever I get this way, I go find something to do. Not necessarily alone if you get my meaning . But just go....gotta house diy project that you needed to get done, but have been too crap assed to do it, now's a good time. Engage your brain, don't let it engage you!!! You know you got this. MAN-UP![/quote']

Haha! You are right! Whats this exercise you speak of, that's done with a partner???

Today I will sleep a bit, by myself... I have a fever now

But I have big plans for my coral tanks

And garden that I'm excited to be working on again. Movement it's a good thing!

My name is Laura and I'm going to "man up"

Because John told me so

Haha! You are right! Whats this exercise you speak of, that's done with a partner???

Well....since I have found myself single again, that type of cardio is pretty much on hold for the time being....

Today I will sleep a bit, by myself... I have a fever now

Seriously---feel better okay!

But I have big plans for my coral tanks

And garden that I'm excited to be working on again. Movement it's a good thing!

That's what I'm talking about!

My name is Laura and I'm going to "man up"

Because John told me so

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From my post today on "wagon thread"

Obsessive thinking!

So I never tried my plain yogurt last night because I'm sick as a dog and watch out I'm a big cry baby when I'm sick... I pouted when my husband went to work in the ER this morning' date='

Why do they get his care, not me!

Anyway can't eat... BUT IT HAS NOT STOPPED ME FROM THINKING ABOUT FOOD!

I think about all day all night, if I wake up in the middle of the night I think about it, I think about it more than I've ever eaten it (thank god I'd be 1000lbs)

I torture myself thinking about it..

I need to think about why I think about it..

How many years of therapy and its still not figured out.

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When you've been in therapy before has it been an eating disorder specialist? Go to edrefferal u can find specialist in your area!

That's how I found mine! Pu initial session and it helped a bit already --- cbt works best for eating disorders-- it almost will always get worse before it gets better! Good luck!! Also it was suggested on here somewhere to read beyond the refrigerator by Linda -- almost done! Great book realllllllllly relate!

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Well....since I have found myself single again' date=' that type of cardio is pretty much on hold for the time being.... <img src='http://www.bariatricpal.com/public/style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/rolleyes.gif' class='bbc_emoticon' alt='' />

Seriously---feel better okay!

That's what I'm talking about!

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THAT type of cardio is the only fun type though, Jon! But I feel your pain on the single again front- ugh!

Being sick always triggers me to eat too. I hope you feel better soon!

Take care Laura. Drink plenty of water. Delegate to the husband and kids while you are not feeling well.

Take care Laura. Drink plenty of water. Delegate to the husband and kids while you are not feeling well.

I second this! You have minions - let them do the work! :-P

Seriously, though, take care of yourself. You'll get over it more quickly if you allow yourself to get lots of rest and as Fiddleman said, drink your water.

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I know there are many people out there that are not addicted to food that are over weight. They just don't take the time for themselves. I wasn't a food addict but I was medicating with food when I didn't know I was at times. I know I didn't eat my first meal of the say till noon with being up at 7 and then I would eat again at 3-4 pm then again sometimes at dinner 6 pm and then again at night before bed at 10 so all my food was in the later part of the day as I just took care of myself last.

I'm just brainstorming here not calling anyone out, but wouldn't self medicating with food be a form of addiction? I mean, if you didn't have food to self medicate, how would you feel? Would you think about eating until you gave in? Would there be any side effects? A lot of people eat a lot at night because that's usually when you're not busy. I know that's the case for me. I still get up off the couch, stand in the kitchen, stare in the fridge, then realize what I'm doing. Maybe it's just habit but what's the difference between a habit you can't break and an addiction?

Laura-Ven,

Hope you feel better soon. I too spend a lot of time thinking about food. What I'm going to eat next, what fits into my plan, what can I stock up in the house. I agree CBT is a good therapy (suggested by someone earlier in this thread). Esp. the all or nothing thinking. I can't have 50 chocolate eggs right now, so my life is over. Sometimes I have to remind myself that they are not going to run out of whatever treat food it is that I'm craving and I can JUST HAVE SOME LATER. I did that when I was quitting smoking too. Every time the craving got so bad I couldn't stand it, I told myself, for Christmas, I will have one cigarette. When Christmas came, I didn't need the cigarette.

Exercise, new clothes, new lip gloss, new lotion, fun trip with the kids to the park (I love going to see the baby animals at Emma Prusch park or Hidden Villa), or computer game all help distract me too.

I'm just brainstorming here not calling anyone out' date=' but wouldn't self medicating with food be a form of addiction? I mean, if you didn't have food to self medicate, how would you feel? Would you think about eating until you gave in? Would there be any side effects? A lot of people eat a lot at night because that's usually when you're not busy. I know that's the case for me. I still get up off the couch, stand in the kitchen, stare in the fridge, then realize what I'm doing. Maybe it's just habit but what's the difference between a habit you can't break and an addiction?[/quote']

Agree^

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When I look at all the postings talking about being addicted to food, I just get so angry at our food industry and how they process foods with high fats, sugars, and salt. The old mighty buck has contributed to the majority of obesity in our country today.... So sad..... I have been pretty good about staying away from these things by staying with foods from the earth with very little processing but find myself looking for the sweet taste of sugar. went on vacation and ate out most of the time and those foods are highly contaminated with all the processes out there...... Time for me to get back to eating just the basics.......... (sighhhhhhhhhhh)

When I look at all the postings talking about being addicted to food' date=' I just get so angry at our food industry and how they process foods with high fats, sugars, and salt. The old mighty buck has contributed to the majority of obesity in our country today.... So sad..... I have been pretty good about staying away from these things by staying with foods from the earth with very little processing but find myself looking for the sweet taste of sugar. went on vacation and ate out most of the time and those foods are highly contaminated with all the processes out there...... Time for me to get back to eating just the basics.......... (sighhhhhhhhhhh)[/quote']

Amen, sistah!!!!!!!!!