Did I get your attention???

Ok, curiosity... when I answer posts here, I am always coming from a perspective of a "food addict"

But many times I have people write back...

"But I don't have an addiction to food"

Which I always think to myself YEAH RIGHT!

Don't beat me up I'm being honest!!

What can I say I'm pessimistic, I also laugh when people say they don't eat TO MUCH so they don't understand how the are fat.. I AM FAT BECAUSE I EAT LIKE A PIG (alone mostly)

Today I thought about, "what if I'm wrong?"

I mean...I am me and I am addicted, how do I know how the next person is???

I'm curious as an addicted fat person how is it for those of you who are not addicted?

Oh and on a side note if I am wrong, then I'm also jealous because I would give anything not to have this problem (addiction)

Laura,

Thanks so much for this thought-provoking thread. I am a food addict with alcohol/drug/food addiction family genetics and a lifetime of addictive "experience". The first five weeks after VSG surgery were heaven (no desire to eat at all!), but now my stomach has healed, the honeymoon is over, and I am grappling with my new reality. The sleeve is a great tool ...but the addiction battle continues and it is hitting me pretty hard right now. I want to be CURED, dammit!! It really helps to know that others are struggling and succeeding. I have this little voice that is whispering "You can't do this...you will fail". Thanks to all the VSTers who are helping me to believe that I don't have to be perfect, that I can pick myself up and keep going forward, and that I can change.

Just came back from lunch with a friend. Drooled over the menu but.....I eat 1 eat and part of a turkey sausage and watched her eat a veg. omelet, and potatoes, etc. Drank some coffee.... and enjoyed our visit. It was hard and I'm almost 6 months out. Going to the movie this afternoon with friends and my husband. Will take my decaf tea and a protein bar with me. Bound and determined.

When I think about my though process (concerning food, my health, fitness) before surgery, I honestly feel feeling of hurt...weird maybe, but I feel sorry for the person I used to be. At some point I can definately say I was addicted to food...not always, but it went in cycles of course, many times triggered by negative events/emotions. I allowed food to comfort me on many occasions. Sometimes I would eat until I felt physically ill. I truly thank God for first working on my mind, & then secondly, having the Dr to work on my body. I no longer feel like a "slave" to food. I'm in control now & I love it.

I love food! Does that make me an addict? I really wouldn't say I over ate everyday, but definitely on some days. I did however eat a lot of the wrong types of foods. French fries, chips etc..my highest ever was 243. Sleeved 3/6 195 now down from 220 starting on pre op diet. Still have the cravings, I just don't give in for fear that I won't stop. So I would probably say I am an addict

Probably my saving grace is that I know I will get sick if I eat too fast, too much, or too greasy, etc. and I don't like that feeling.

Laura' date='

Thanks so much for this thought-provoking thread. I am a food addict with alcohol/drug/food addiction family genetics and a lifetime of addictive "experience". The first five weeks after VSG surgery were heaven (no desire to eat at all!), but now my stomach has healed, the honeymoon is over, and I am grappling with my new reality. The sleeve is a great tool ...but the addiction battle continues and it is hitting me pretty hard right now. I want to be CURED, dammit!! It really helps to know that others are struggling and succeeding. I have this little voice that is whispering "You can't do this...you will fail". Thanks to all the VSTers who are helping me to believe that I don't have to be perfect, that I can pick myself up and keep going forward, and that I can change.[/quote']

Hi!

We are right here with you. I am taking this day by day, Hell sometimes minute by minute!

It's so helpful to have this forum. To be able to talk to others that know exactly what you are going through helps so much.

I too wished that some kind of miracle would of happened in my head along with this surgery.

But we have a fighting chance now and friends to help encourage us and lift us up in the dark moments.

This week for me has had a lot of ups and downs

But I will continue to learn to love myself and try to be honest about my eating (I say that because I'm a closet eater). I will do that here and with my husband. It helps telling him because it lets out some of the shame I put on myself after I've snuck food. It also puts an honest spotlight on my behavior and what my feelings were leading up to it.

I noticed this morning on the forum a lot of threads about "OMG I'm hungry wtf??"

Sounds like a new topic in the coming days..

Laura, I like how you ID trends in threads--you always seem to be right! they come in waves.

Laura' date=' I like how you ID trends in threads--you always seem to be right! they come in waves.[/quote']

Yes that's because I spend entirely to much time here! Lol!!!

Yes don't these people know you had to spend the extra 3000 bucks to have the hunger part taken out for good!!!

Is there a number of posts at which you can pick your own tagline (like Sleeve Evangelist, etc.). If so, maybe yours should be VST Trendwatcher.

I think most people here like to refer to me as "chief **** stirrer" or " dead horse beater"

Laura, I don't think that is true at all!!! Chief Honesty Officer?

Just came back from lunch with a friend. Drooled over the menu but.....I eat 1 eat and part of a turkey sausage and watched her eat a veg. omelet' date=' and potatoes, etc. Drank some coffee.... and enjoyed our visit. It was hard and I'm almost 6 months out. Going to the movie this afternoon with friends and my husband. Will take my decaf tea and a protein bar with me. Bound and determined.[/quote']

Sounds like a good day so far!!

Lets us know how the movie goes.

I think most people here like to refer to me as "chief **** stirrer" or " dead horse beater"

OMG- need a disclaimer: no horses were harmed in the creation of this thread. Lol.

When I think about my though process (concerning food' date=' my health, fitness) before surgery, I honestly feel feeling of hurt...weird maybe, but I feel sorry for the person I used to be. At some point I can definately say I was addicted to food...not always, but it went in cycles of course, many times triggered by negative events/emotions. I allowed food to comfort me on many occasions. Sometimes I would eat until I felt physically ill. I truly thank God for first working on my mind, & then secondly, having the Dr to work on my body. I no longer feel like a "slave" to food. I'm in control now & I love it.[/quote']

I find you interesting... So would you say you feel over your "addictive" relationship with food?

I am not a food addict per se. Three things have caused me to overeat.

1. Letting stress get to me which makes me not give a crap about eating healthy.

2. Eating out of boredom. I eat horribly when I'm sitting home alone on the computer.

3. Going through menopause at 32 which royally screwed up my hormones and metabolism.

Because of these things I have gotten into some bad habits that without the surgery will not get modified.

So I'm my opinion, good is not an addiction, I'm just too tired and stressed to care most days. :-)