ok ok...now that I made my choice and decided to change my weight I have had time to think about some of the things I look forward to after I go through the operation and begin my change in lifestyle. I look forward to learning to eat better, put myself first instead of last, get in better shape, weigh less, laugh more, smile more, buy smaller clothes, look ok tan, be able to swim without a shirt on, and improve my sex life and make it hot! Shallow and silly to some these reasons are, and maybe a little TMI but they are the things that keep me motivated.

Good on you, we all have different goals mine is to walk and not end up in a wheelchair

No more spanx. Not having to hide my body from my husband. Sex with the lights ON. Confidence. Energy. Better sleep patterns. No more back aches.

Pardon my karma sutra, but sex is a million times better. Shopping for smaller clothes is exhausting because "everyone wears that size" but it still feels like a victory! Even your shoe size shrinks! You dont worry "omg, am I going to break this" or "will my butt fit on this". You dont think people judge you on your size anymore, but on how sexy you knew you were before "Why yes, I'd like to try a sample of [food]" doesnt make you double think errrr will people stare at me funny? (++, it serves as a meal early on haha hellooooooo Sams Club Buffet!) That meal at Applebees people scorf down in 1 sitting and are still hungry? Nope.. serves as 3 meals for me! And no more awkward "quarterpounder with cheese, 6 piece nugget, large fry, 2 apple pies, and a large diet coke" orders. (although they will look at you silly when you order a kids meal. Oh well its half the price of a regular meal you wouldnt eat all of!) Oh. And "crap theres a weight restriction!" no more of that! And "does this make my butt look big?" turns into a whooooole nother reason to ask!

Although I would like to say, I thought clothes and accessories would be cheaper. NOPE! Just means I buy more because I CAN buy more variety at those stores I couldnt shop in before HELLOOOOOO Victorias Secret!

I can't wait to go-cart race, go on theme park rides again instead of lying and saying that I'm too scared, sit outside on rickety patio chairs, go to the dollar theater, go to concerts and things in stadiums, fly without fear of being fat shamed or kicked off a flight (I basically want to go to all the places I avoid because of narrow seating), be able to dance all night without sweating so much, destroy my clothes and shoes less often (since my frame stretches my clothes, they develop holes and wear too thin and get rumpled more easily). I can't wait to be treated better by society, and for everybody to accept me for my personality rather than me just being the fat girl. I can't wait to stop getting winded every time I walk or go up stairs. And the list goes on.

A brand new us!

Good on you' date=' we all have different goals mine is to walk and not end up in a wheelchair [/quote']

Same here! The only medical issue that i have is bad knees and poor circulation in my my legs. If i done have this surgery, I think I'll be in a wheel chair real soon.