My surgery was rescheduled for Monday, which is a few days earlier than originally scheduled. This happened today and I can't stop crying. I'm exhausted and can't sleep because I know when I do I'll be that much closer. I knew this would happen, it's my cycle of panic disorder, but I thought I'd be able to tune it out. I also started spotting today...awesome timing for emotional crap right? Any advice to get me through my 2 clear liquid days, the tears, and fears?

Don't let your fears decide your faith. You are almost there.

My surgery was rescheduled for Monday' date=' which is a few days earlier than originally scheduled. This happened today and I can't stop crying. I'm exhausted and can't sleep because I know when I do I'll be that much closer. I knew this would happen, it's my cycle of panic disorder, but I thought I'd be able to tune it out. I also started spotting today...awesome timing for emotional crap right? Any advice to get me through my 2 clear liquid days, the tears, and fears?[/quote']

Just think of the journey you've been on to get here and why you are doing this in the first place. Think about what next week, next month, next year will be like for you.

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A shot of vodka won't kill you

I should pull a few of your posts and remind you why you are doing this You are committed, you've studied the issue, you know this is what's right for you silly girl. So go forward, embrace your fear...it's healthy! And pop us out a note when you're ready to sit on this comfy little pillow I made you on the losers bench

Thanks you guys. I'm very aware of how ridiculous my anxiety makes me think, and how much it makes me act like a fool lol. I think it'd be easier if I was oblivious and just thought my crazy reactions were normal

I really appreciate your words. I've done 6 months of pre-op stuff and months of researching before that, I know I want and more importantly NEED this, it's just scary. Oh well, between Xanax and stress induced sleeping I think Monday will be here and gone before I know it

Thanks you guys. I'm very aware of how ridiculous my anxiety makes me think' date=' and how much it makes me act like a fool lol. I think it'd be easier if I was oblivious and just thought my crazy reactions were normal

I really appreciate your words. I've done 6 months of pre-op stuff and months of researching before that, I know I want and more importantly NEED this, it's just scary. Oh well, between Xanax and stress induced sleeping I think Monday will be here and gone before I know it [/quote']

If you weren't nervous about this big step my dear...I'd think you were a dork.

Don't chase the xanax with vodka