I think I grew feathers and a beak because I just called and canceled my appointment with the doctor for tomorrow I read a couple horror stories and everything is just so life or death that I can't calm my anxieties enough to go to my appointment. I'm afraid I may be stuck in this fat suit forever

One of my final straws was when someone said to me "when was the last time you saw a morbidly obese senior citizen?",

Actually there are quite a few morbidly obese senior citizens in Wisconsin, lol darn cheese! Trust me I know, I have had to lift my share of them in the hospital and for a brief period when I worked in a nursing home. Thank you though for the well wishes, being "average" size is something I want and the only way to get what you want is to go after it! Honestly the whole guy being able to pick me up and spin me around is one of the things I am looking forward to post-op. It seems so silly (and yeah I could probably find some huge body builder guy who could do that to me at my current weight) but that is my biggest off scale victory that I am looking forward to, next to being able to cross my legs :-)

Actually there are quite a few morbidly obese senior citizens in Wisconsin' date=' lol darn cheese! Trust me I know, I have had to lift my share of them in the hospital and for a brief period when I worked in a nursing home. Thank you though for the well wishes, being "average" size is something I want and the only way to get what you want is to go after it! Honestly the whole guy being able to pick me up and spin me around is one of the things I am looking forward to post-op. It seems so silly (and yeah I could probably find some huge body builder guy who could do that to me at my current weight) but that is my biggest off scale victory that I am looking forward to, next to being able to cross my legs :-)[/quote']

You know I wish you the best! Be sure it's a good hospital and you have ultimate trust in the doc and move forward when you're ready dear!

surgery gets you launched, but your ultimate trajectory is up to you.

Sooooo True. I think forward thinking is not even thought about.

We spend alot of time worrying about dying on the table, getting leaks (very legitimate concerns!) but too little time thinking about living with this for the long run. Take it seriously - both the short term and long term risks/issues but ALSO the risks/issues of keeping the weight. They are both very real - do the math.

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Both well stated