Opportunity Cost
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so back in April i got the job i currently have. i started this process in may and the requirement for the insurance is 6 months supervised diet. ok fine... that puts me at completing the diet phase next month. today i interviewed for a job that under ordinary circumstances i would be over the moon for, its actually in my field, w/ opportunities to move in the company. its everything I'd want...only....at this point in my life i can't really say i want it more than i want this surgery. they haven't called back or said they were interested or whatever....its all up in the air. but I'm left w/ possibilities forming and falling apart in my head over and over. good job = no surgery because the other insurance won't cover, plus I'll be new again and won't be able to take enough time off for another year. its so strange to hope that they don't want me even though its the job that i've worked towards getting for so long. its not like I've had a ton of interviews just a handful.
I've lost 33lbs on my preop 'diet' and i was really proud of it but this whole interview thing plus going to night classes has thrown everything I've worked on into a heap. I've been god awful on my diet...I've gain like 5lbs back. i know i have to get this thing settled but I'm so freaking wobbly right now. on the bright side I've been off of pop since April and haven't gone back and I'm still working out 4 days a week. but i haven't had time to plan my way to thinking about the food I'm eating instead of just ordering and eating whatever sounds like it will fill me up.
hoping by Friday to have my crap together and move on, i can't believe I'm willing to stay at a dead end job just so i can have this surgery but...at this moment in my life, it just is.
ok...i think i broke the rant button.