Ok- So My life is always a little weird, but here goes... BANDED 5 years ago- lost 120lbs.. great.. 2 years ago started haveing complications,... let out fluid and then progessivly kepts getting more fluid let out... and gaining... and heartburn... lost heath insurance so did not have upper gi etc... I had major body and mind trauma 1 year ago in a accident where i was rescued out of the ocean after 3 hours in alaska... i was very thankful for the extra warmth layer of fat!!! anyhow- my physical system for the last year was up and down with adreiline, sugars, shock, -i gained 70 llbs,... had band completely deflated and still had major acid flux... lost health insurance. i suspected something was not right... was told i neede to do something... i was dying with moe weight gain, etc. soooo with little $ for usa.. i schedualled a fix it op. in mexico... went well. but due to extensive scar issue etc surgery itself too awhile. i had been living with a band to tight and slipped and scr tissue grown over etc.. so i was used to the pain and not really being aware anymore.. NOW I am 7 days post op... DR wants me on clear liqu 15 days THEN 15 days of shakes, milk thick, THEN 15 days of the puree.... Im not EVEN looking at cottage cheese for another 4 weeks!!! WHAAA im not sure im gonna make it.. I have an incredible pain tolerance and think im super human.... soo liquids are no problem... i drink them till the cows come home... i am DYING for SOMETHING... not sure what to do cause i dont trust myself to KNOW if it hurts enough to not do it... i really can not screw this up.. but at same time my body is crying out for some milk or something... im scared...worried that im gona die os some weird complication cause my body does not heal well, and i was in mexico, and on and on... IT is nice to have No more heartburn... i am geting in liqu and protien... CANT I MOVE ON??? 7 more days of this i dont know.. im gona start self medication with smoking and sucking on candy soon.. and that is not the route I want .. i want this oppurtunity to really change the way i handle life and food... Im scared... my back hurts much.. are my kidneys ok.. (Urine DARK) ... I can not afford to keep running to DR. at least not for a few more weeks.... i need to get back to work to earn...because life is life i have been up much and carrying a little. i hope i am not ripping things out in there... I cant sleep well- I think im just anxious.

Your urine being dark is a cause for concern...I know you are hungry, but GET SOME FLUIDS IN!!! It could also be the reason for you craving other things. I cannot stress enough the importance of staying hydrated, ESPECIALLY in the summer months.

urine color IS not a good sign. Definitely drink a lot more water. I just ended up with kidney stones from not drinking enough after moving to Texas. I hope you feel better soon.

You have the rest of your life to eat whatever you wish but for now you have to recover from your surgery. That means drink water, boullion, crystal lite, isopure, sf jello this week and next, drink your protein shakes next, eat your purees after that. After your food progression, you can decide what you want to eat. Due to the band, parts of your new stomach are more at risk and need to be treated with care. It sounds as though you have had a rough two years. but your body is not crying out for some milk or something--that's your mind. Be strong and follow your surgeon's instructions, please.

THANKYOU FOR THE ENCOURAGEMENT.... I JUST NEEDED A LITTLE....

IT HELPS with the bacon being fired in my house right now... Thank you... I am NOT ALONE... And your right.. this is my MIND.

You have the rest of your life to eat whatever you wish but for now you have to recover from your surgery. That means drink water, boullion, crystal lite, isopure, sf jello this week and next, drink your protein shakes next, eat your purees after that. After your food progression, you can decide what you want to eat. Due to the band, parts of your new stomach are more at risk and need to be treated with care. It sounds as though you have had a rough two years. but your body is not crying out for some milk or something--that's your mind. Be strong and follow your surgeon's instructions, please.

You can get through it!! Keep focusing on your goal and drink as much as possible!

You have had a lot of things happen to you in the last couple of years that were not within your control. The good news here is that right now you are 100% in control of doing all you can to prevent any kind of tragedy with this surgery. CONTROL WHAT YOU CAN. That means follow your postop diet to the letter. Be a freaking Nazi about it. Meditate on it and let yourself really grasp this - you are NOT a victim anymore. Your cravings are false. Your body does NOT need milk or any other thicker substance. What it needs is to heal and deviating from the plan, starting to smoke and the other things you mentioned are going to hamper the healing process.

Stay in control. Revel in it. You are not a victim. Say that to yourself until you believe it. You are not a victim. All the things that have happened have brought you to this point. You are in a place now to decide exactly who you are going to be as a result of them. Choose to be stronger, more determined and motivated. You can do this. Think of the amazing story you will have to tell as the weight comes off, the story of who you have become in the face of these circumstances. You are your own hero right now. Rescue yourself. Stay on course.

Get your fluids in. There should be something to drink near you every minute of every day and you should be drinking it near to constantly. Get that urine clear.

And whatever you do, do NOT start smoking. It WILL affect how well you heal.

thank u.. i read ur post at least once a day to remind myself