Well...after all my pushing, hard work, and having to get a new date because if emergency gallbladder surgery, i got my date. Why am I not so freaking excited?? I'm scared. I really didn't want to have 2 surgeries. I have faith in my surgeon and his team, but I'm a huge wuss!! Anesthesia, again?!?! Ugh! I wish I wasn't so scared. I need to do this. I want it, I really really do. What's wrong with me? I just don't want to have worked this hard, and put all this money in and get there and decide not to do it. I'm kind of ranting but also looking for people who I can communicate with about my feeling & maybe hear your feelings and what you went through or are going through.

Thank you everyone!

Ali

In the same boat with ya!!!! I feel scared nervous,excited and all the other emotion that you speak of..lol . There is a lot unknown and you have to trust your surgeon that he is going to steer you in the right direction. yep sugery 2 times suck but hey the second time is the time you really wanted. I stay so mixed up inside all the time but I take a look at where I am and where I wanna go and all the confusion subsides. I want to be a healthier person, so I am closing my eyes and stepping into the unknown. It is a worth while endevor for me..

I think we all go through these feelings . It us no joke this is major and life changing so what your feeling is just part of it. I am scared to death to be going to Mexico to get my surgery so far away from my family. I just remind myself that it needs to be done and this is the only and push through my fear . I am going the 19 of February so we are going to be pretty close in there .

Yeah we are! I know it's scary but I'm telling myself the same things. It HAS to happen. This is it. I've been scared my whole life. It's tome to "man" up & take control of MY life. Nice lil pep talks help. We should definitely keep in touch!

Yeah we are! I know it's scary but I'm telling myself the same things. It HAS to happen. This is it. I've been scared my whole life. It's tome to "man" up & take control of MY life. Nice lil pep talks help. We should definitely keep in touch!

are you having it done in the US

Yeah, I'm having it done at kaiser in Fremont, California. Where do you live?

Hi everyone. . yes, we all go through these feelings. . this was my 18th MAJOR surgery and I was scared. . it's the anticipation of it I think. . but you know what? I am here today to tell you all about it. . .also I am very allergic to narcotics so I can't take pain medications except for Tylenol. . so I've learned how to divert the pain away. . .depending on your pain tolerance it may or may not be too bad. . . as long as you get up and walk and don't wait cause your too sore, and sip sip sip your water or whatever they'll give you. . . trust me, I got up about 6 hours after surgery and i was walking those halls cause i didn't want the gas pains. . . it works. . . you'll all be ok, and in no time flat you'll be up here helping the newbies too. . . good luck, you all made excellent decisions. . . check out my ticker and i'm 1 year out now. .

Hey there this is the first time I have posted. I have been in this chat room for a couple of days now just reading and contiplating. I feel exactly the same emotions as you feel. I go in on Monday to set up my date. I should be super excited, but I am not. I super scared!!! I find that this chat room has helped me by reading everyone's stories.

In the same boat with ya!!!! I feel scared nervous,excited and all the other emotion that you speak of..lol . There is a lot unknown and you have to trust your surgeon that he is going to steer you in the right direction. yep sugery 2 times suck but hey the second time is the time you really wanted. I stay so mixed up inside all the time but I take a look at where I am and where I wanna go and all the confusion subsides. I want to be a healthier person, so I am closing my eyes and stepping into the unknown. It is a worth while endevor for me..

Yeah, I'm having it done at kaiser in Fremont, California. Where do you live?

I had my surgery at kaiser fremont last june. Who's your surgeon???