As I sit here it's finally hitting me... 5 more days til surgery. WOW it's almost here. I'm nervous and scared. I'm also excited to start the next stage of this journey. But I'm also sitting here thinking will I ever be able to eat the food I enjoy ever again... I guess I'm thinking about that more due to the fact that I've been on all liquids for the last 9 days. Will I be able to eat spicy food again? Both me and my husband enjoy cooking and eating spicy food. The hotter the better is our motto And I'm also stressing about the pain after surgery. I'm not only having the sleeve procedure I'm also having a hiatal hernia repair. I'm a BIG chicken and cannot tolerate pain at all so here we go with worrying about that too.

At least I have the support of my husband and parents. My parents will be coming up the day of surgery to sit with him while I'm in surgery. I have to be at the hospital at 6:00 and the surgery is at 7:30 a.m. Not sure if mom and dad will be there before then to see me. Dad is 75 and he supports my decision to have the surgery but he's worried and I know it because he's recently started calling me when he used to have mom call to see how we are doing. I hate putting my family through this stress. And another thing for me to worry about.

I need to be medicated.

I think all the feelings you are having are normal. For me I did not have that chance to get nervous, or scared as they called me one day and asked me to come in the next day for surgery. You are doing a good thing. Just think if you did not decide to have surgery you could be stressing your family over something worse which was related to your weight. I'm sure they would rather be stressed over this surgery then something else. I will keep you in my thoughts, and prayers. Just take a deep breath, everything will be fine.....

First it is wonderful that you have such support and it will surely help you with your recovery! Second I think we all felt bad that we were causing undue stress to our loved ones and considering all the what ifs, but put yourself in their shoes and ask yourself if you would resent it if they were doing it for themselves. The answer is probably that you would support them, love them, wish them the best but naturally worry for their safety but would never want them to not go for it.

I am 8 weeks out and I have eaten some really spicy chilli Beans the last couple of nights (my mom sent them over and she warned me she went a little haywire with the spice) they were delicious but spicy. I eat so little that they didn't seem to bother me a bit.

Best wishes and keep us informed of how you are recovering...I am sure I speak for everyone when I say we are all here for ya.

I will be thinking of you. I am 9 days out myself. It takes courage to do this! We have decided that we have had enough of this unhealthy and some times unattractive lifestyle. Be strong and stay encouraged. We must live in light and gratitude!

Normal thoughts and fears, praying for peace of mind. This is all going to be worth it in the end!

Ditto cleosan52

Thanks everyone for your words encouragement. I know I'[m doing to right thing for me and my health. I just hate putting my family through the stress and the worrying. OMG Wednesday is right around the corner.