I changed my display name to DaybyDaybaby because that is exactly what I feel like. everyday I need encouragement, everyday I feel I need guidance for this lapband. Granted I have lost weight but I think I wasn't expecting so soon and my mind hasn't caught up.

I feel a bit guilty because I didn't try harder, but I was just so tired of losing and gaining back.

I journal all my thoughts, I give mysellf pep talks:

I will be where I put myself mentally : in bandster hell or successland.

Sometimes God gives us our hearts desire, the rest is up to me

I even have an email set up to myself that says 'you finally did this for yourself and your family,

Life will be happier

I just needed to vent,

It is a day by day struggle. and as my hubby has said, I had two surgeries back to back my body is still trying to get back to its normalcy. (gallbladder/lapband) hard to believe it will be 6 weeks already , I want to be one of those that are happy they got the lapband and can really start enjoying life and the lapband be part of it , instead of being something foreign for now.

vent all you want! ! That's what we are here for. Everyone will have some sort of struggle and hopefully everyone will achieve what really is our ultimate goal....to lose this weight once and for all!

vent all you want! ! That's what we are here for. Everyone will have some sort of struggle and hopefully everyone will achieve what really is our ultimate goal....to lose this weight once and for all!

Thank you HollyDolly , I don't want to be complaining to hubby all the time poor guy. He is supportive but he doesn't really know what's going on in my head.thats ,why this site is my lifeline. I just sometimes feel I complain too much, or whine too much.. what do they say would you like cheese with that whine?

In looking at your ticker , I think we are aiming for the same weight goal, Awessome!