Banded Jan 2011 and struggling...
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Hello everyone. My name is Brynn and I am 32 years old. I was banded this past Jan after struggling to lose weight naturally since, well, forever. I remember being very excited and motivated when I started this process. I thought it would be easy: have surgery, lose weight. I knew I would have to put forth an effort, but I didn't think I was going to struggle with weight loss as much as I had before...
Before having surgery, I weighed 247. I now weigh 249...ten months later. Initially, I had to have all of the Fluid removed from my band due to swelling. I stuck with my post op diet for about a month and only lost 4 pounds. Considering how little I was eating, how hungry I was, and how much weight I was NOT losing, I became discouraged and gave up again (story of our lives, right?). When I finally was able to have my first fill about 3 months post op, I was (literally) ridiculed by the PA on my lack of weight loss. He put in 2ccs and pretty much insulted me the entire time. I headed home feeling worse than I ever had about my weight. I mean, who goes so far as to have a lap band done and still can't lose weight? I was embarrassed and disappointed in myself, and felt as though nothing was ever going to change. I cancelled my next two fill appointments since I didn't feel like seeing the same guy again, and I certainly didn't diet. I felt no restriction whatsoever, and decided this lap-band thing was a joke. I ended up back at 258 pounds, which is my highest weight ever.
Finally, in August, I decided to go back in and see someone else. She was very nice and supportive; we spoke for a long time about where I was mentally and emotionally and it helped renew my resolve. She added 2ccs (putting me at 4 total) and sent me on my way. I began dieting again, but still felt no restriction and no relief from hunger. I was always hungry, and when I slipped, I was able to eat just as much as before being banded. What I always felt I needed was discomfort...I thought the lap-band would make me physically unable to eat larger portions of food and therefore, as much as I would hate it, I would lose weight. This just isn't the case. At 4ccs, nothing had really changed for me--I felt exactly as I had before surgery. As of yesterday, I had managed to bring myself back down to 249 and headed in for my third fill. She puts another 1cc in. No big deal, right? I left expecting more of the same for awhile.
Well, today I wake up and eat three pork rinds (I'm trying to do the Atkins induction, so this is one of the few Snacks I can have). I chewed them well, but I started feeling very uncomfortable and stopped eating. My chest began to hurt...a lot...I figured something was stuck and tried to move around, drink Water, etc. I began gagging and vomitting up anything I tried to drink. I can feel it stop in my esophagus and there's no where else for it to go. The pain was quite severe. I put in a call to the doctor but they have yet to get back to me. So here I sit, unable to eat or drink, wondering why I can't seem to find happy ground anywhere. I'm definitely in need of some support from others who can relate. I don't know what to do if 4ccs feels like nothing is there and 5ccs makes me vomit liquids. I'm just so beyond frustrated at this point.
I would really appreciate hearing from people who have had similar experiences, or some advice on how I can make this work for me (and how to get things unstuck!). I'm tired of failing at this process...
Thanks for reading.