Today I realized that I dd all this because I thught it was worth it. So why the hell am I ALWAYS concerned with cheating...

PRE OP.. I CHEATED..POST I KINDA CHEATED

AT THE END OF THE DAY I'M HURTING NO ONE BUT MYSELF.

Yes, Protein shakes are annoying and the Jello.. i will not be unhappy if i never see jello again. crystal light, and broth? ewww..

i guess we have to remember our reasons for doing it. when i'm thinking about cheating or crying.. because yes i have times where i juststart crying.. like this was stupid for doing this.. i think of those jeans or that halter top that i wanted to wear. Or going on hikes and surfing that i only dreamed of.

two piece swim suits...not being JUST the girl with the pretty face...I know its hard,ugh this is THE HARDEST THING I'VE EVER DONE .. but i know its worth it. SO FROM THIS DAY ON NO MORE CHEATING!!!!!! ...SWIM SUITS, REAL SKINNY JEANS ...AND FITTED DRESSES HERE I COME....LOL

I HOPE EVERYONE IS BLESSED TODAY

Keep up the positive attitude. You can do this!

I struggle with being too hard on myself too. It's a hard habit to break. Be kind to yourself. It's a long journey, but worthwhile. I still need to remind myself everyday. Plus, I've chosen to accept that for me, the band is not a miracle worker, but it was the catalyst to get me and keep me on a good path. (not a perfect non cheating path, either!)

No matter what your goals are, you'll get there.

The mental aspect of this journey is more difficult than the physical. Don't beat yourself up over cheating...we all do it in one way or another, either by eating more of the things we shouldn't be eating, or not working out, or not getting enough fluids, Protein...whatever. You do the best you can, give it your best shot and see what happens. Don't let anyone stand in judgement of you when they don't know how your life has been.

Best of luck to you...I hope you get all the things you want!

Lately cheat is my middle name. Sometimes I cannot believe that I actually had SURGERY to lose weight, went through a significant amount of pain and discomfort from the surgery, and yet I still cheat! It is ridiculous! I had surgery 7/22 and for a while I did well. I had lost a total of 23 pounds and then hit a wall, no more weight loss. At a standstill. At first I couldn't get motivated to exercise. I thought if I kicked it in gear and started exercising, I would start losing weight. I have finally started exercising on a consistent basis, but now I have turned into a cheater! I read a post where someone said they want to eat a cheeseburger and fries so badly, but they don't do it. Well guess what? I have! Well the cheeseburger, with most of the bread ripped off. And just a few fries before I get stuck and it hurts and I can't eat the rest. But I still try! What the heck is wrong with me???? IDK. I just make bad food choices sometimes that frustrates the heck out of me. Not all the time of course, but more so lately than I would like to admit. I have had one fill so far. My doctor will only do them every 6-8 weeks. I go for my 2nd fill next Monday 10/11 and I CANNOT WAIT. I am hoping I will get more restriction then. I have a little restriction now, (hence the getting stuck on bread and fries) but nowhere near enough. So I am hoping that this next fill will get me closer to restriction land and help me to stay focused on what my goal is supposed to be, which is losing weight. I actually GAINED 2 pounds this week. I get mad at myself. But if I have to be honest, part of the reason I have been bad lately is I am afraid that when I get my next fill that I will be extremely limited to what I can actually eat and so I am trying to eat it now before the fill gets here. But what is so stupid is that I already went through all of that before I had the surgery. The "Oh I won't be able to eat this after surgery" feeling and therefore eating everything in sight. I don't/can't eat everything in sight now but still, come on! I eat things I shouldn't and more than I should/hopefully will be able to. When is enough going to be enough with me and food already? I am so sick and tired of food being in charge of me! I want to be the one in charge! I want food to just NOT BE IMPORTANT in my life anymore. That is why I had this surgery in the first place. Bandster hell really is hell. Some people really have the willpower to just stay on diet mode through this part until they get to restriction but obviously not me. So here I am at 21 pounds lost well over 2 1/2 months post op. BUT......here is the good news! I REFUSE to stay down. I am going to turn things around after this next fill. Restriction or no restriction, I am going to get on track and stay on track! I finally have the exercise going. Now if I can just get the food thing under control I can hopefully start seeing the numbers on the scale going down! Thanks for listening to/reading my rant. Good luck everyone!

Losing weight is hard, even with a band! Your positive outlook is great.

And I also agree that it is such a mental game. I got sick about a month after banding and found myself "treating" myself for being sick and needing another surgery! A week and a half later, I was still treating myself! This past weekend, I scolded myself for these little indulgences because they were getting habitual. Now, I was still eating small meals but not focusing on Protein and what not. This week, i'm focusing on getting back on track! It's a constant battle, you just got to keep on fighting and pick up the pieces if you stray a bit :thumbdown:

Good luck!!!

Rebecca...i know i mentioned wanting to eat a cheese burger and fries...i am just so afraid of gettin stuck! ya know. the whole 'stuck' or 'sliming' thing has scared me to death....it has nothing to do with 'will power' it's fear of the unknown. Heck IF i had will power i wouldn't of needed the band.

i'm glad you are being positive and when we 'confess' we feel better. I know before the surgery i was like you..i thought..i better eat this now..blah blah blah and i wouldn't tell anyone. Made me feel horrible afterwards [mentally..not physically coz my tummy was happy..lol ]

now with the exercising..i bought the Zumba dvd's and i'm looking forward to getting into it again. right now i'm just walking. i live in a small town so we don't have a rec center and since the pools are closed now i can no longer do water aerobics [which i loved]

i send you positive energy and thoughts!! remember why you got banded in the first place! you can do it!

:tt1:YOU'RE RIGHT LADIES WE CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I THINK I'M GONNA BUY SOMETHING CUTE AS MOTIVATION LOL