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thank u both...my port is on my upper right side...its disguised by ab muscles...there is a lil indent and a scar...
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october 6th was my 2 year bandiversary...i was in a car accident that morning...i'm okay...but i really didn't get to celebrate...i honestly wasn't planning on celebrating anywayz...i've had my ups and downs thru this whole process...i was going to treat like any other day...bcuz i'm like any other person that has lost weight...i am proud of myself for keeping my weight off for 2 years...and always working hard at it...i'm proud of myself for changing my lifestyle...eating healthy...staying fit...going to the gym and watching my portion size....i love love love love myself and my band...i weighted in at 163...my goal weight is 165...i will not go over 165 or under 160...that is my bodys healthy weight...i love my body and i don't abuse it anymore....
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and what about being over weight feels yucky????? what people say or think of u...who gives a flying shit...people say negative things to thin people too...if ur not having the band for health reasons or bcuz u desire to live a healthy lifestyle...and ur just having it to please society...sweetheart ur in for a rude awakening...society is never pleased...thin...fat...short...tall...bad skin...bald..etc...etc...if its not 4 u and ur health...ur waisting ur time...
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That is one of the reasons I am just going to lose this weight with LAP-BAND® and start my life over again. I want to be able to look nice as well and feel confident.....from a big person that is now a small person...u should work on ur self confidence issues starting 2day...ur issues do not go away once u lose weight...they'll come back to haunt u in one form or another...i've gone thru this process...2morrow is my 2 year bandiversary...i went in this feeling the same way u did...not working out my issues b4 i lost my weight...what a mess...u will get lost in the high from ur loss and once that high goes away...ur u again...ur a person no matter how much u weight...work on thinking u look nice now...who cares what people say or think...not every1 thinks over weight people r horrible...thats what society has us conditioned to believe...i love my band and would do it all over again...but i wouldve worked on my self-esteem b4 my surgery if i could do it all over again...
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when i see my before pictures...i cringe...when i see "her" and "her" side by side...its almost unbelieveable to me...who are these people?????? ooooo....yeah...its me...its you carolann...i look at the pain in the over-weight girlz eyez...and tell "her" (me) your okay...its all right...we (i) made it through the storm; when i see the thin-girl...i tell her (i)...relax...calm down...your a girl that lost a lot of weight and you put ur pants on 1 leg at a time...i tell me...these girls have been through a lot...the over-weight girl and the thin girl...they were both hurt at some point....the over-weight girl had her reasons for becoming over-weight...the thin girl had her reasons for taking laxatives...we (i) will be okay...once you two (me) heal and become 1...we (i) will be a strong force....:-)...my point??? become 1 before this surgery...be 1 whole person...do not let this surgery divide you...the fight within is horrible....
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for awhile...i started to hate my band...after all i went thru...i honestly was considering having it removed...it wasnt the bandz fault...i was looking to place blame...the only one to blame is myself for not seeking help b4 i under went weight loss surgery to resolve my issues and for letting myself get so out of control...now that i'm starting to heal and live life by choices...consequences and well-thought out decisions...not to mention loving and caring about myself...i am grateful to have had this surgery....without it and all these feelings coming to a boil...whos knows where i would be....
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i haven't alwayz lost weight the healthy way...but i can say this from the day i had my surgery....2 almost 2 years post-op i immediately changed my lifestyle...its not what i ate and how i exercised...it was a whole change of lifestyle i made...i made the choice to eat heathly and exercise...which i continue to do ...to this day...i see a lot of people using the word "diet" on here..."dietz" failed all of us...thats y we r here...i see a lot of people asking "what they should eat"...i won't give u a list of foods...i will suggest u eat healthy though...and i strongly suggest u get use to an exercise routine...that u can stick with for a lifetime...i would personally stop reffering to this surgery as a diet...and reffer to it as a lifetime tool to aid u with the lifestyle changes...u...urself...personally have to make and stick with...again thatz my advice...now lap on...:-)
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lol...at ny legend...yes regular creamy p-nut butter...swallow a tablespoon...or as much as u can swallow without getting stuck...the pnut butter is thick and takes awhile to leave the pouch...whatever u eat after the pnut butter will lay on top and take even longer to go thru the pouch...and it is normal after a fill not to feel the restriction for a few weeks...until then swallow pnut butter b4 ur regular meal...
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do u like pnut butter?????? if so; eat a tablespoon of pnut butter and then ur meal...its a trick :-)
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just an update for those that have been following my story...i went for my assesment this weekend...the doctor checked my hair...skin ...nail...esphogaus (sp)...teeth..and anal for damage...i have not done any internal damage...my hair is weak... i got an Iron shot..my toe nails did fall off and my skin is getting better...she was amazed at how many doctors have failed me...i don't place blame on them...i wasn't telling them the truth...i was even prescribed laxatives by my doctor (not the band surgeon) when the over the counter laxatives just weren't strong enuff...i have an idividual counsler and i go to 2 support groups...i go to a support group for over-eaters...they feel the over-weight girl needs to b healed and figure out why she over-ate in the 1st place...they r taking me back in time...they r bringing "her" back to the surface...when i walk in2 those meetings...the ladies...look at me look...huh???...what is she doing in here??? they just see my thin shell...they don't c the girl that lives inside this body...i was asked by one of the girls if i was there to motivate everyone...i said "no...don't b fooled by what u c...i haven't always looked like this"...i exercised with an over-weight woman...when we were finished i held her and cried...she probably thinks i'm crazy....but it was me i was holding...then i go to support meetings with under-weight ladies...they r much more angry...mad that they r there...most of them are not there by choice...in denial and not very friendly...the staff and my counsler r going to treat the over-eater and the bulimec/aneroxic...then they r going to merge them...how long will it take...i don't know...how hard will it b...i don't know...all i know is i'm going to get better...i've received so many messages from all of u in supportive of my well-being and recovery...thank u all so much...
She never mentions the word addiction...In certain company...Oh yeah, there a smile when the pain comes..The pain gonna make everything alright...Says she talks to angels...Says they all know her name...Oh yeah, she talks to angels,...Says they call her out by her name
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more then happy 2...inbox me ur e-mail address and i will send them to u
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(1)...if you follow the post-op instructions for the first 4-6 weeks (i 4got who long it is...lol) from ur surgeon u will lose weight with the lap band
(2)...if you exercise with the lap-band u will lose weight
(3)...if u watch ur calorie intake with the lap band u will lose weight
(4)...if u eat smaller portions with the lap-band u will lose weight
(5)...if u choose to change ur eating habits after surgery u will maintain ur weight with the lap-band
(6)...if u stick to an exercise routine u will maintain ur weight with the lap-band
(7)...if u had bills to pay b4 ur surgery...u will have bills to pay after surgery
(8)...u will be able to shop at the "skinny stores" after u lose weight
(9)...if u had problems with ur relationship b4 ur surgery...u will have problems in ur relationship after surgery
(10)..if u had body image issues as an over-weight person...u will have body image issues as a thin person
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if ur interested i can show u want my tummy looked like b4 plastic surgery...my private is exposed...but if ur not offened...i'm not either...lol
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unfortunately...there is not any exercise that will get rid of a hanging belly...believe me...i'm the ultimate gym rat...on the bright side...ur insurance my cover a panniculectomy..which i had...along with a mini tuck...a mini tuck is not covered by insurance...the panni alone..will get rid of the hanging skin...but will not tighten ur stomach...u will have to do that urself...i'm very pleased with the way my stomach is forming..i do crunches and sit-ups...and i'm forming my lil six pack...:-)
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****oooppppssss due to health care reform*****
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i live in los angeles; ca....san fernando valley...i was listening to the radio...and a 1 800 get-thin advertisement came on...at the end of the commercial...the announcer said "hurry...hurry due to health care reform the lap-band will soon not b covered by insurance"...it sounded funny...hurry hurry...get ur popcorn...get ur p-nuts...get ur lap-band...lol...have a great weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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thank u for ur support and understanding...last nite i ate an extra cup of chili and some cherrios...i had to fight the urge not to take a laxative this morning...i was starting to change my mind about going in2 treatment..i've already told my counsler what i'm NOT going to do....hahahahahaha....i can dream on...when i got the urge to take laxatives in fear of gaining weight...i told myself no u have to go...even though u didn't...u need to give up the fight...
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really...u still think i'm inspiration??????? i feel like i've failed all those that looked up to me...i did it the wrong way...
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thank u for ur kind words and support...the center i'm going to offers individual therapy and group therapy..the individual therapist will get to the root of the problem...the group therapy is where the actual eating dis-order will come in2 play...my therapist has also suggested i go to support groups for over-eaters and not just bulemics....some centers handle all eating dis-orders....this one is specifically designed for bulemics and aneroxics...it's an in-patient/out-patient center...i've asked my new therapist if there is anyone else in there with a lap band...and like i've mentioned b4...she said "its very common"...i still have a hard time admitting i have an eating dis-order...but i fight with food...i fight to eat...i fight...i fight...i feel guilty when i eat..some go to drugs and alcohol when they r stressed i go to laxatives and now i find myself vomitting when i am stressed...i'm getting a grip on the mental part...starting to feel like myself again...losing my image...i feel like i'm waking up from a bad dream...but the other part has a strong grip on my mind...i'm scared to death of food
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how much weight r u wanting to lose...i'm 5'8...and weight 160-165...i'm not sure how much some1 at 5'2 is suppose to weight...but if its under 50 pounds ur wanting to lose...then i would try another route...like morgan said...this is a physical altering surgery...
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i'm sorry i didnt read ur reply...if u have tried everything else...and ur doing it strictly for urself...i would do it...ur young..end this battle now...
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if ur thinking about having surgery to improve ur health and to end ur battle with obesity...i would say go 4 it...if ur doing it to run around in a bikini and to date guys that don't like "fat-girls"...ur kidding urself...the only thing that changes is the size of ur body...look at ur person...is ur person a good...happy person...then keep her...with or without surgery...its a smaller body...and thats all there is to it...
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can i ask u an honest question...r u trying to lose weight for urself...to b healthy...or ru trying to lose weight for society...or to b excepted...r u happy with everything else in ur life besides ur weight?????
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and ladies that have come to me and told me about their dis-orders...i will NEVER EVER mention ur names...they wonder y we go to such extreme measures not 2 go back to "huge"...no its not worth it...and i want u all to get help...but i know how u feel... the pressure is on....
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it depends on how bad u want it...none of us can tell u how long it will take...it varies...it could take u 3 months...it could take u a year...r u willing to work hard for it??? r u willing to eat an apple slice instead of a slice of cake...r u willing to exercise for 45 minutes instead of 2 minutes??? if ur willing to change ur exercise habits and eating habits...i would image not that long.....