Starry

I was the friend that everyone hated.. I could eat anything and never gain a pound...I've usually been the thin person who danced all the time. I was a professional country singer for 25 years in Vegas constantly active and the life of the party.. Full of Pee & Vinegar most would tell you LOL

About 4 years ago it all changed for me... Was in a bad car accident that changed my life. I was T-Boned by a 15 year old kid joy riding in Mom & Dad's Mercedes while they were vacationing in Cabo and left their kids with a "Friend" Yeah great friend.. Oh.. and he was drunk at the age of 15! Great Parenting!!

I spent 3 months in ICU and personally didn't want to live..I have a daughter with Special Needs and a son that was over in Iraq fighting this wonderful war we're involved in thanks to 9-11.. I gave up living, looking at all the scars I had and the stitches I was covered with all over my body I gave up.. simple as that.. I gave up.. Hello My name is Starr and I gave up!

Now, I'm 130lbs overweight.. My time of impressing a man is over, I've been divorced for 26 years now really don't care if I ever marry again, but I do want to be in love maybe. But seriously, how often have we overweight women had a man falling at our feet and as fat as I am would I even see his butt down there? LOL

I'm the life of the party, the one who's always poking fun at myself.. "Oh don't get in the way of the fat gurl and a candy bar" Or "You won't like this fat girl if I'm sweating in this office so get the ac fixed now"... it made me feel like it was ok "I" made fun of me, but I'll kick your ass if YOU do... yeah.. really smart thinking huh.. *Rolling Eyes*

I have the determination to be healthy.. but I'm nutrition stupid.. I don't cook, I don't know a carb from a fat from a protein to a starch. I can't tell you what the grams mean or what the label means. If someone would just say "OK Starr, you're going to eat this and this and that on this day and that day and keep doing that for 2 weeks" I'd be ok! But instead I have all this information to read and it's like trying to learn French or Spanish... ain't working for me!!

I'm scared of failing.. simply put I'm scared of failing. Scared of putting my life savings into something that might not work and is it not going to work because I've screwed something up. They say to get on protein 2 weeks before.. WHAT IS THAT? I mean seriously.. and I don't want to buy something that will taste like I just had lunch in a sandbox at the park and we're talking about eating the damn sand not a cheeseburger in the box!!

So.. that's my story.. I'm the average person, I'm the norm...and above all I'm ME. I like who I am but I know I could be better and I'm hoping the journey will be an easy one that won't wear me out too much.. but I'm also 50 and I'm no spring chicken anymore!!

But in all seriousness I know I can do this, I had the surgery completed on April 6th, my highest weight 279.. boy was I fluffy! But I do have a strong support system with my two wonderful children and I have a dear friend I've known for about a year but much closer since she had the sleeve done in December, she also has great support from her loving husband and her two awesome children. She's a local radio celebrity, but to me..she's my friend and confidant. There isn't anything I can't tell her or ask her... she's been amazing through this and I'd be so lost without her guidance and support... I love my dear friend Heather!

Hope to be added as a friend.. I want to take this journey with you, someone who's taking the journey too

Mucho Love to all!!

Starr