mysteriousrae

I'm Misty. I women of many colors. I've had a life  like most of us  on here,  for me  it was  cheated.  Being fat either hindered me  from things or  I just didn't do them cus i was scared  of being teased. I feel  at  my age now at 28. Its  time to  shed the weight  for good and start living. I'm a mother of  4 and loving wife. I want more  for me, so I can give  my family  more of me. I suffer from disease after disease, and I'm to young to die from all these diseases. I  WANT/NEED more! I've  always  thought  I wasnt  that big,so that  i felt better...depression  comes  and goes with my weight. I go  up and down, and I hate feeling  like nothing because sadly  the world  is based on  beauty and fitness etc. If u  dont  meet that  then are  left out. I  want my children to  grow up knowing the healthy living, learning and eating are important so they can make better choices for them. I've always  tried to do that with  what I buy for them, but  while I'm huge..it doesn't make sense to me. I'm not being the role model  that  I  truly want to be  for  my family. Thats  why  along  with  tons of other reason's, is  why I am having this surgery, I have  no fear, just excitement..knowing that Mine and my families life will change  for the better and that I can live  longer  and healthier happier... Im  blessed  truely  blessed. I didn't know  about my Insurance at all until  I came Into lapbandtalk.com  and Im  so blessed again to have  a family here, support..info and  a new life  waiting for me on the other side. I cant wait  to update this letter  here in...  10 days 6 wks 8 wks  6 months 10 months...wow  life  seems sooo exciting to me now, something  to hold on to LIFE ! ! !LIFE IS WORTH LIVING  NOW  FOR I HAVE U  MY BAND TO HOLDME TIGHT AND  KEEP ME RIGHT ALL MY LIFE THRU ! ! Mysterious Rae <3