xxLaireaxx

Its okay lol.

That's good that you have someone who knows the area, avoiding the train is a good thing to do anyway.

Exactly. I too am 350+. And I haven't lost any friends yet, but I don't doubt that I will. I've done a lot of things, and been in a lot of groups that people would normally think big girls shouldn't be in and that's why I've had to deal with so many skinny girls. I used to be on a cheerleading squad in high school about 180 "friends" all weighing less then me and standing in front of a mirror pinching the little fat they have saying how disgusting they look. It just hurts you know. That's why I like this website, because it's full of beautiful people who would appreciate losing even just a little weight and I think once we're all skinnier well be just...like such incredible "normal" people, because we know how it feels to be different. Lol sorry I ramble a lot xD

Hey, I just joined this site and was looking for some people to talk to I saw that you were around my age and already had the surgery so decided hey why not lol. How are you progressing so far?

Hey, I just took a look at your pics and I wanted to say great job I just got banded last week and hope to make good progress too

Hey, my name's Aerial I'm kinda new to this site and I was looking for people around my age to talk to lol. Ever want to talk just hit me up

Hi, I'm Aerial thanks for the friend request How are you doing so far?

Holy crap! I think we're like soul twins lol. I write songs and perform too and everyone tells me to go on AI too. I've just always wanted a band because I'm very much into rock music, but I'm starting to think if I don't even try on my own no band is going to want me regardless of my weight. It's what I love to do but I'm just scared of failure...and people judging me. Yeah you're right it is mind power...but we should always start sooner rather then later, because this change isn't fast and as we're just letting the change happen, dreams and opportunities can pass us by...

I know! Lol but it's done and I survived and now that my mind is free from schoolwork essays it's moved on to thinking of my uncertain future and stuff. I have had so many rambling thoughts lately it's crazy...too much going on because of this weight loss. It gets surreal and scary you know.

I like to write: poetry, stories, etc. I think I'm going to be a high school English teacher or Drama teacher if I decide to minor in theater

I wish it didn't exist too I stress out a lot...more than necessary lol

I'm glad you're feeling better It was an english paper. TEN PAGES on the symbolism of blood

I've been okay, almost made it through my two week post operation liquid diet, although I'd be lying if I say I haven't cheated at least once lol. I've lost about 26 pounds so far and I'm going back to college tomorrow....T_T not exactly excited about it lol

Lame, well if I find anything that relieves stress (besides eating lol) I'll tell you xD

Lol I do enjoy singing. And I'll admit I sometimes like my voice in bits and pieces. It's like...very particular to what songs it lets me sing (lol like its a person). I have a piano and a guitar, but I can't really afford lessons so it's like a slow self learning thing xD And I don't think I can give up on my dream just yet, I mean I'm still pretty young and if I don't try now I'll always be like "what if blah blah blah". But I'm in school with Liberal Arts right now, soon to be English Major, idk what minor

Lol I'm just glad I don't have that class anymore

Lol it works but barely xD I need new techniques

Lol my chorus teacher was my English and Drama teacher in High School xD I would absolutely love that. I actually am writing a book it's pretty unorignal though. And the poems turning to songs things happens to me too lol Sometimes songs into poems though as well

Lol rambling is good for the soul. I think this experience will definitely be one to tear you down before it builds you up confidence wise though. Because about a week after I had the surgery I already started realizing. "What the heck am I going to do?" It's hard to gain something that's invisible and you've never had to know how it feels. I've always faked confidence, gone for things people will tell me not to and been a people pleaser, but at the same time I've never thought about what I've wanted to pursue. If I could actually make my dreams come true etc. Like I've always wanted to be in a band. But "who wants an overweight lead singer?" soooo overall I just...I'm wondering so much lately about what's possible now. And I hate not knowing...so it's a break down you know...it's weird

Lol well whenever you have it yay for breaks :/ I have midterms now though, which sucks. And some trains aren't that bad, but the ones in Manhattan are crowded.

Lol wtf? That sucks. When I get stressed out. I need to just freak out and then be left alone it's just how I work lol

Lol yeah it's nice. Sorry it took me a few days to respond, I had a project LAME. How are you feeling now?

Lol You never know. I don't think I could make a demo tape, I actually hate my voice and don't get what people hear. It's kind of weird like...no matter what song I sing you still hear my voice...it's weird to explain. If I knew how to play guitar I don't think I'd want a band as much lol

Lol you never know. People might find it interesting. I just bought a new electric guitar today lol yay for things I don't know how to use.

No I'd love that we should read each other's work lol bonding xD. I could show you some stuff now i just dont know how I feel about them lol. Yeah trains are scary I've seen things no one should see on them...very bad thiiiings. But as long as you avoid the train's you should be fine. Now I want to go to manhattan lol the 25th is my spring break

Oh lol I think I know of it. Yeah I felt like that too like "Can we just do this already?" With certain insurances/health coverages you don't even need the six months -.-. But I think it helps anyway