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Yvette1026

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  1. Yvette1026

    Well Duh...

    By Yvette1026,

    I had a "Duh" moment today at my fill appointment. As much research as I did for 5 yrs prior to getting the band, and all the things I've read I never thought about, or put together the fact that the reason our fills work and don't, then work again is fat loss and shifting.
     
    When my Dr said this today I was just like Ooooooohhhhhhh DUH!
     
    The reason we get fills - fat loss around the band makes the band looser, hence the fill to tighten, then fat shifts, especially as you lose it, so there's days it'll seem SUPER tight and days it'll seem SUPER LOOSE, same thing with various times of day.
     
    WELL DUH! How I missed that one I didn't know. For some reason it never "clicked" to me that our stomaches have fat around them.
     
    In other news my total weightloss since Surgery on 12/18/09 is 47lbs WOO HOO! Got another CC put in today, bringing me up to 4 cc's.
     
    1 cc at install Dec 18th
    1 cc Jan 18th
    1 cc Feb 8th
    1 cc Mar 5th
     
    And in other other completely random news... I had Maple Bacon Ice Cream tonight.. Yes I said Bacon Ice Cream - and it was SO good! If you live in AZ be sure to try Sweet Republic - SO good, but that Bacon One.. WOW
  2. Yvette1026
    I do believe this is it! I've lost count of fills but I have restriction, I'm not hungry and when I eat I'm literally eating bites of food and I'm satisfied.
     
    I feel great, minus the sweet cravings, food is NEVER on my mind....I LOVE IT. No longer am I a slave to food, the drive thru or anything having to do with food. It feels great to eat an orange or apple and be full. To eat half of a sandwich and be done. To be full off of a protein bar or yogurt. Just great great stuff!
     
    In other news my craving for sweets got the best of me last night so I decided to go to my old standby Peanut Butter and Jelly.... BIG mistake. BIG BIG BIG mistake.. I now know what you all mean by "STUCK", "SLIME" and "PB'ing" - Ok I'd been stuck one before the first week after surgery but it hadn't happened since..
     
    I got about 3 bites into the sandwich and OMGosh the PAIN.. the PAIN.. The nausea the slime the please just go down.. please just go down, or come up.. oh wait it's peanut butter it's not going any where..
     
    Thankfully the whole episode only lasted about 5 mins but it was the LONGEST 5 minutes of my life... so note to self.. Peanut butter is NOT your friend...
  3. Yvette1026
    So last night I spent my NYE at church. We had a great time and as usual a potluck, we tend to have sandwiches as the main course because they're quick, easy and people can do what they want with it, add mayo, etc...
     
    Being banded I now see how much we as a society over eat! Let me explain...
     
    The deli didn't have enough time to make our order but they did have some ready made footlongs, you know the ones made piled high on a whole loaf of french bread? This is the same sandwich we usually order but it's cut in 3 instead of slices. We usually order a 6 foot sub and it's gone within minutes.
     
    So last night we got 6 sandwiches to equal the 6 ft sub we usually buy. They brought it into me to prepare and I looked at the huge hunks of sandwich and now in my banded eye and mind cut them into reasonable portions.. I took every third and cut it into 4 mini sandwiches.
     
    Wouldn't you know, we ended up with 3 unopened sandwiches and leftovers from the first 3.. this has NEVER happened in all of the gatherings we've ever had.
     
    To go a step further, I kept the bread from my mini sandwich, ate the meat, cheese and lettuce and kept the bread. I purposely mashed it and balled it up to see what it would look like chewed and in my stomach.
     
    I was disgusted... me, the bread lover. The person who would get a hot loaf of french bread with some butter from the store and would eat it as a meal. I was so disgusted by the ball of dough now sitting in my hand, to realized that it came from just that lil' mini sandwich and was about the size of my upper stomach/stoma.
     
    I thought about before how I, like everyone else, would take a thick slice of sandwich or two and eat them. I never realized just how much I was putting into my body..
     
    And reality struck me... Yvette THIS is why you're fat. Your whole life you've loved breads, even meals that come on breads, burgers and sandwiches have been the mainstay of my diet. Going upscale? Beef Wellington please... that's right I like my beef wrapped in dough..
     
    Pizza, I don't even like pizza, but I do like the crust covered in parm and pepper flakes.
     
    You name it and if it was doughy deliciousness I've probably eaten it. Carbalicious doughy deliciousness. If it was sugar or frosting coated or filled even better.
     
    I have a completely new outlook, but it's going to be a struggle. Even after being disgusted by the ball of bread, I let out an excited fat girl scream when someone came in with Hot Krispy Kremes... I limited myself to one and enjoyed it, savored it. This must be how the other half lives, because never in my life have I nibbled and noshed on something that tasted so good. If it was good I ate it, ate it quick and as much of it as I could.
     
    Prior to being banded, I have and would have eaten a dozen of hot glazed krispy kremes by myself. Then justify it by not eating anything else the rest of the day or saying "they're just so good and like air, they melt in your mouth"
     
    Gone is that person, it's physically impossible for me to do, but I've also renewed my mind to food, it's purpose and it's effects.
     
    Disgusted by the memory of me going to Krispy Kreme and ordering a dozen or a dozen and half. Eating 6 and feeling full, looking down to see the icing mess on my shirt. Going home or to work with the rest and some how losing track until they were all gone.
     
    Ugh.. seriously it makes me feel a multitude of emotions, sad, disgusted, pathetic, angry, etc.. How do you do that to yourself and not even realize what your doing. What is so wrong in your life that Food is your only comfort? I know the answer to that question and it's not something to put here for all to see but WOW.. Really Yvette???
     
    How far gone do you have to be where you're in relationships with men encourage you to eat like that, or have fights with your husband about food and donuts, and other food related nonsense. What a site that must of been, wolfing down donuts in the parking lot of the Krispy Kreme, I remember that look he gave me, and now 7 yrs later, I get it. It was disgust.
     
    On the upside I've done something about it, so the past can never be again...
    That's the new reality and it's definitely struck me, whether I was ready for it or not.
     
    2010 here we are....Let's make the most of it. This was my last fat christmas, my last fat NYE, my last fat anything... Life solutions, not resolutions. Do everything in excellence or don't do it at all.
  4. Yvette1026

    Who knew???

    By Yvette1026,

    SO.... who knew LBT showed up on places like google, as far as what we post, etc...
     
    So just a warning for those of you who want to keep your surgery or blogs private... if someone were to google your username or email, it comes up.
     
    On the upside you can change your username if necessary by going to the USER CP section and at the very bottom it gives you an option to change your name.
     
    So good deal!
     
    Anyways happy blogging...
  5. Yvette1026
    Dark and dreary day here in az with a high of 54 right now... all I want to do is stay under the covers but I've got work to do.
     
    So today I was going through the forums and found the "protein" post and while I was giving advice and recipes I got some inspiration on this cold day.. HOT CHOCOLATE!!
     
    Yumm yumm yumm!!!
     
    I could improve it but it was good for the first try..
     
    4oz skim milk
    1/4 teaspoon vanilla
    pinch of cinnamon
    1 scoop designer whey chocolate protein powder
     
    I made it like old fashioned Hot Chocolate on the stove.. milk, then dumped eveything else in and stirred until it started to bubble.
     
    I could have made it creamier by adding some yogurt or non-dairy creamer, and the sugar free chocolate pudding but honestly the way I made it is good too. And I won't feel guilty when I go back for more later HA! lol
     
     
    Ok in other news... It's official!!! My surgery is now back on the 18th, better day, better number, more recovery time! WOOHOO and I may, may just be able to eat something come Christmas LOL... But now this puts me EXACTLY where I want to be. I'm SO excited! YAY ME!!!
  6. Yvette1026
    I am not the person who obsesses and stresses over the scale, never really have been. In fact I don't weigh myself unless I'm going for a fill appointment. But I won't lie, the entire 12-24 hours before my appointment I stress out. Omgoodness did I lose? What have I eaten since my last appointment? Ugh I shouldn't of had those.. I do all these stressing just to go and realize that YES I have lost weight (even if it's just 7lbs in a month - it's still a loss, even if it were just 1 or 2.. I'm GOOD with that) but I've come to realize that honestly NONE of that matters to me. It's the NSVs or Non-scale victories that matter most to me.
     
    When I see random people from my past and they can't get over how great I look. When I go to put on clothes and they're literally falling off me. When I put on something that was tight or didn't fit and it's now loose on me. That's what matters. When I look in the mirror and I like what I see. When I look in the mirror and actually SEE parts of me that I hadn't seen in awhile because it was covered with a roll. When I look in the mirror and there's definition and tones in muscles and legs, defined waist, stomach getting smaller, my incision sites coming closer together as my stomach and fat shrinks.
     
    That I have more energy. Can cross my legs, walk miles, run and play with kids for hours, have a "healthy glow" about me.. That *I* am getting healthy, completely healthy for ME. That's what I care about. That's the result I'm looking for. So in light of all of that.. EFF THE SCALE! :thumbup:

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